I remember the first time I met you, teacher.
It was when I started suffering from anxiety disorder and insomnia.
In the past two years, like everyone else, I have been tied down by the coronavirus.
Going to the concert hall, which was like a playground to me, where I could run around and play to my heart's content dozens of times a month, only happened once a month or so.
Even the owners of live clubs would cry and be speechless when they saw me, and the staff members I worked with would complain that they didn't know when they would have to quit.
As the bands' income decreased, our company also took a hit, and the smile disappeared from the CEO's face, leaving only a sigh.
I have many self-employed friends around me, and they keep saying that they are holding on with hunched shoulders, but they don't know how long they can hold on.
---From "After the Taken-For-Lives Routine Collapses"

I also remember the day I first met Mr. Seongwoo.
If I repeat exactly what I said back then after hearing what the voice actor said, it was, “Then I guess there’s no need to be a singer.”
At the time, the voice actor I saw was worried about what to do if he, a singer who was good at singing and performing, didn't do well.
As many people acknowledge, No Brain is a representative rock group in Korea that has been singing for over 25 years, and they are seriously concerned about singing well and performing well.
The idea that we 'must do well' something comes from the pressure to abandon or change the present and move on to a different state because we are not doing it now.

---From "What is obvious is truth"

Regardless of occupation or status, there are people who enjoy interpersonal relationships but find them difficult.
Anything you enjoy should be enjoyable and easy, but these people enjoy interpersonal relationships but find them difficult.
The reason is that in interpersonal relationships, we always have to make the person we are dealing with feel good, and if we make the person feel bad or uncomfortable, we feel like we are doing something wrong.

---From "Perfectionism in Interpersonal Relationships"

In fact, the hardest thing about suffering from depression or anxiety is not knowing what you're struggling with, what stresses you out, and what scares you.
So it's really important to talk to someone, whether they're a close friend, a stranger, or a professional.
(…) In fact, it is sometimes difficult to hear the stories of people who are burnt out like this.
The reason is because I feel I have to do something for that person.
But the speaker is not actually saying something to expect something from the listener.
I'm just saying this because I'm having a hard time and I feel like I need to vent my frustrations.
---From "Let's talk about it first"

According to Carl Gustav Jung, the human psyche is made up of the persona and the shadow.
Persona refers to the image of yourself that appears when dealing with other people.
The shadow tells the story of another side of me that hides beneath that persona.
It is often said that the persona and the shadow are opposites.
So, because people only think of things and phenomena outside of themselves as reality, they unconsciously suppress their own world within their minds, preventing it from being realized.
Then, when you happen to discover that you have the opposite tendency, you just follow along without fear.
(…) Perhaps Mr. Seongwoo, who has lived his entire life as a rocker, has seen another side of himself that was trapped in the shadows, and is following and liking it.
And the anxiety and fear I felt every time I had an emotional outburst found solace in seeing idols safely engaging in artistic activities within a controlled emotional expression and well-crafted script.

---From "Persona and Shadow"

I never thought I would never get married at this age.
(…) Marriage is a promise to spend the rest of your life with someone, but I’m still afraid of that promise.
It's not like it's a relationship where it wouldn't be strange if they broke up at any time, and it's not normal to declare in front of family, relatives, and friends that you're living together and even officially record on paper that you're together.
As you live together, you will see flaws that you didn't see before, and there will be times when you hate each other for no reason.
Now that I think about it, it's similar to our band.
If you don't like it, the band breaks up, and the couple gets divorced!
---From "The Joys and Sorrows of a Single-Person Household"

No Brain has been together for a really long time.
I'm like that too, but the longer we've been together, the more I think the other person will notice 'this much'.
This statement is both true and false.
(…)
Why do kids love Santa Claus? Because he's incredibly good at figuring out what gifts I want and giving them to me.
(…) This wonderful Santa Claus is ultimately created by ‘expression’.
Although the child has never expressed to his imaginary Santa what gift he wants, he expresses with his eyes, mouth, and body what he wants.
And parents, whether they love their child or find it a bit annoying, notice the signal and prepare a gift.

But this kind of intuition, especially old intuition, can sometimes lead to misunderstandings.
Even something so trivial can cause hurt feelings and misunderstandings between close friends.
A good way to address this is to make a big move, send a clear signal.
It's about laughing out loud at what the other person is saying and responding clearly by saying things like, "Thank you," "That's great," and "I want to do it together."
It's like children who unconsciously let out big expressions before Christmas and end up getting the presents they really want.
---From "Signals and expressions must be loud and clear"

Talking to the teacher, I realized that even if I can't do what I want to do, I won't die, and even if I can't have what I want, I won't die.
I realized that I didn't have to struggle to keep it or struggle to throw it away.
As a result, many things felt lighter and I think I was able to feel small happiness more often.
I'm happy when I listen to the music I like, when I can play the guitar, and when I can sing.
As a rocker, these are things that are natural to me, but I think I wasn't happy because I took them for granted.

---From "Happiness Found Again"

Hesse expressed the intermediate stages of self-realization through moths and birds.
“If a moth were to direct its will to a star or something like that, it would be impossible.
But moths don't try that.
“A butterfly seeks only what has meaning and value for it, what it needs, what it must have.” In other words, Hesse expressed ordinary people striving for their goals as moths, not as flashy butterflies.
Not a butterfly that loses its purpose and purpose and chases stars, but a moth that flies toward a simple goal.
Perhaps Seongwoo's past self-deprecating comparisons with others resembled a lion. And perhaps Seongwoo's current self resembles Hesse's moth.
Is there anything more simple than feeling a sudden happiness while rolling around on the lawn with your dogs, without any other work or special reason?

---From "Let it be"