The sound of 'resurrection' resonated deep within my heart.
When faith is established through the resurrection, we do not waste time in doubt.
Even without being told to do so or pushed by anyone, they run towards their mission.
This book is a record of my transformation, and also an expression of my earnest love for the souls the Lord desires to save.

---From the "Prologue"

My only prayer request was, 'To worship until the last moment and then close my eyes in gratitude.'
Even during chemotherapy, I wasn't afraid of needles, and I was grateful even when a blood vessel burst during a test.
Of course, I felt the pain fully, but I became more and more confident in the fact that it was not my body but the Lord's body that was real, and that what I felt was not fake.

--- p.67, 68

"Lord... I feel awkward talking to myself. Shall we sing a hymn? I'll close my eyes and open the book, so open it to whatever you want." They sang the hymns one by one.
As I was searching for the word and praying with the Lord, three hours had already passed.
From then on, I always looked forward to five o'clock in the morning when I could worship the Lord in comfort.

--- p.90, 91

The test results were a relapse.
I immediately understood the Lord's will.
My heart began to beat faster as I became convinced that the Lord was using my body to save souls.
'I confessed that the first cancer was a gift, so the second and third are also gifts.'
--- p.93, 94

I was grateful for the pain too.
This pain allowed me to understand the true suffering of terminally ill cancer patients.
Even if the time given to me is short, I will focus only on saving souls and spreading the gospel, because the Lord protects me.
When I stopped focusing on the pain and just held on to the gospel, all my worries disappeared and I gained the courage and freedom to accept any situation.

--- p.100, 101

What is seen is temporary, what is unseen is eternal, so let us proceed only toward the gates of heaven.
I don't want to enter heaven's gates hesitantly.
Hold your chest out and say proudly, “Jesus, I really missed you.
“Are you happy to see me?” I want to hug the Lord and run into His arms.
I want to go after loving the Lord passionately.

--- p.131

“While attending Sunday service, God rebuked me for my mistakes.
Mom and Dad said that it was wrong to think that they would know how I felt without me having to express it to them, and that I needed to express it in words.
In fact, I couldn't love them deeply because I resented the two people who didn't seek God even though I was sick.
It was all my fault.
Since I accepted Jesus and it became clear to me that there is a heaven, I just want to see my mom and dad in heaven.
So I was anxious.

You don't have to do anything for me, just go to church with me.
It's my only wish.
Dad, Mom, and I, we won't have much time together, no matter who goes to heaven first.
I'll take care of everything else.
“Please meet the Lord.”
It was hard to open my mouth, but when I actually said it, it was nothing.

--- p.134, 135

I held his hand and prayed earnestly to welcome him.
At the moment of the final Amen, it seemed as if he could hear himself shouting 'Amen! Amen!' in his heart.
Every time I said 'Amen!', I felt a great vibration in my chest.
There was love in those tearful eyes.
I observed closely as he moved his lips with difficulty, and saw that he was repeating “thank you” with subtle movements.

--- p.152, 153

At first, I thought God gave me cancer to bring me to my senses.
But cancer was never a gift from God.
It was a disease caused by my sinful habits.
But if I hadn't had cancer, I would have had no hope of confessing Jesus as my Lord until I died.
So cancer was a gift.


Even though I spend all day meeting patients and fellowshipping with the Word all night, I still start the day with dawn prayer and manage my tight schedule.
My body belongs to the Lord, so I pray and move today to do what the Lord wants.
Then, surprisingly, you will return to your best physical condition.
The choice to give up my body ultimately results in saving my body.

---From the "Epilogue"