{"product_id":"112594","title":"I want to die, but I want to eat tteokbokki ","description":"\u003ccenter\u003e\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/tmgdisk01.cafe24.com\/images\/vs\/4172\/sv\/3jYEEn7t0MrVz1y7UeIKJ8vYwPt7Lr.png?v=1765015288\" style=\"max-width:100%;max-height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:center;font-size:30px;font-weight:bolder;line-height:1.6em\"\u003e I want to die, but I want to eat tteokbokki \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"border-bottom:1px;border-bottom-style:dotted;border-color:;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable align=\"center\" width=\"100%\"\u003e\u003ctbody style=\"border:0px\"\u003e\n\n\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd align=\"center\" style=\"line-height:1.2em;text-align:center;font-size:18px;color:black;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px;\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\n\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/image.yes24.com\/goods\/61779464\/XL\" style=\"max-width:100%;height:auto\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/tbody\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%;{split_style6}padding-top:20px;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:16px;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e Description \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;word-break:break-all;font-size:14px;line-height:1.6em;\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eBook Introduction\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cdl\u003e\n\u003cdt\u003e A word from MD\u003c\/dt\u003e\n\u003cdd\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e You have to be someone who can cry when you want to cry.\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e An intimate treatment diary for depression and anxiety disorders.\u003cbr\u003e The reason this book, which honestly reveals the dark side of one's heart, has already become a hot topic through word of mouth is probably because there are many people who suffer from an unreasonable emptiness and live without even realizing that they are suffering.\u003cbr\u003e Even when we want to die, our hearts still want to eat tteokbokki.\u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e \u003cspan\u003eJune 29, 2018.\u003c\/span\u003e \u003cspan\u003eEssay PD Kim Do-hoon\u003c\/span\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/dd\u003e\n\u003c\/dl\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e \u003cb\u003ePublished in 25 countries\u003cbr\u003e Recommendation from a psychiatrist\u003cbr\u003e Drama adaptation confirmed\u003cbr\u003e 1 million copies sold worldwide\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “A remarkable perspective that looks at an individual's most vulnerable moments in a novel way.”\u003cbr\u003e -Cosmopolitan\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “Honest and smart. \u003cbr\u003e“Using actual transcripts from months of therapy, we carefully move toward self-awareness by exploring our own depression and anxiety.”\u003cbr\u003e -Chicago Tribune\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “The author’s efforts to make conversation about heartache feel natural are admirable.”\u003cbr\u003e -Publisher's Weekly\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “Be honest.\u003cbr\u003e “A genuine attempt at self-discovery for young people suffering from depression and anxiety.”\u003cbr\u003e -Library Journal\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “This book is personal, yet universal, and it finds a path to understanding consciousness and wisdom.”\u003cbr\u003e - Kirkus Review\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e“There are many people who live without even knowing that they are having a hard time.\u003cbr\u003e “I was suffering from a sense of emptiness for no reason.”\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Many people are used to showing off their cool and bright side, but try to hide their gloomy and dark side. \u003cbr\u003eBut one thing you must know to be happy is that you will never be happy if you ignore the sadness in your heart.\u003cbr\u003e We must speak now.\u003cbr\u003e About the empty space in my heart that cannot be filled even when I live without any problems, about the corner of my heart that feels gloomy even while I am laughing and chatting with friends.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e“We are not people who do not cry,\u003cbr\u003e You have to be someone who can cry when you want to cry.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e This book is a compilation of conversations between the author, who suffers from dysthymia (a condition characterized by persistent mild depressive symptoms), and a psychiatrist.\u003cbr\u003e This book is for those who appear fine on the outside but are rotten on the inside, who are neither terribly depressed nor happy, and it is the story of all of us who are imperfect, shabby, and unable to free ourselves from the gaze of others. \u003cbr\u003eThis book may not take all your sorrows away, but it will help you become someone who can cry when you want to, rather than someone who never cries.\u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cul\u003e\u003cli\u003e You can preview some of the book's contents.\u003cbr\u003e \u003cspan\u003ePreview\u003c\/span\u003e\n\n\u003c\/li\u003e\u003c\/ul\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eindex\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e I'm starting off my life without any problems, but why do I feel empty?\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e I've been feeling a bit depressed for a week now\u003cbr\u003e 2 weeks ago, did I have delusions?\u003cbr\u003e 3 weeks I'll be watching myself\u003cbr\u003e I want to be special for 4 weeks, but I'm not that special\u003cbr\u003e 5 weeks of that damn self-esteem\u003cbr\u003e How can I get to know you better in 6 weeks?\u003cbr\u003e 7 weeks to decide, decide, get disappointed, and leave\u003cbr\u003e 8 weeks, finally, drug side effects\u003cbr\u003e 9 weeks of excessive appearance obsession and histrionic personality disorder\u003cbr\u003e 10 weeks Why do you like me? Even like this? Even like this?\u003cbr\u003e 11 weeks I don't look pretty\u003cbr\u003e 12 weeks from the bottom of my heart\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e In conclusion, it's okay, a person without shadow cannot understand light.\u003cbr\u003e A psychiatrist's words: Imperfection is imperfection  \u003cbr\u003eAppendix: The Virtuous Functions of Depression\u003cbr\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eDetailed image\u003c\/b\u003e \u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/image.yes24.com\/momo\/TopCate1894\/MidCate003\/189324761(2).jpg\" border=\"0\" alt=\"Detailed Image 1\"\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eInto the book\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e Even in moments of unbearable sadness, I laughed at my friends' jokes, yet felt a sense of emptiness somewhere inside, and then I felt hungry and went out to eat tteokbokki, which I found funny.\u003cbr\u003e I was suffering from an ambiguous feeling that was neither terribly depressed nor happy.\u003cbr\u003e It was even more painful because I didn't know that these feelings could happen at the same time.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.8\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Because the two ends of emotions are connected, the stronger the tendency to depend, the less likely you are to be dependent.\u003cbr\u003e For example, when you depend on your lover, you feel secure, but you also build up dissatisfaction. When you break away from your lover, you gain autonomy, but you also build up anxiety and emptiness.\u003cbr\u003e In some ways, I think I may be dependent on work.\u003cbr\u003e I rely on it because it gives me a sense of accomplishment and recognition of my worth, but that satisfaction doesn't last long, which is problematic. \u003cbr\u003eThis is like running on a hamster wheel.\u003cbr\u003e I tried to escape from depression, but failed, and through a series of attempts and failures, my main emotion itself became depression.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.21\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e They say that opposites attract.\u003cbr\u003e People who appear to have high self-esteem actually have low self-esteem.\u003cbr\u003e Because I lack confidence, I try to make other people look up to me.\u003cbr\u003e Conversely, if you have high self-satisfaction, you won't be greatly affected by what others say about you (which means you have low self-esteem).\u003cbr\u003e --- p.30\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e I think that if I show any signs of being broken, people around me will dislike me and leave me because of that.\u003cbr\u003e But I know the many faces of people I love.\u003cbr\u003e The ugly parts, the cool parts, the timid parts, etc… … .\u003cbr\u003e Even if there are negative aspects, I like him just because he is that person. \u003cbr\u003eYet, I feel anxious because I think I could be abandoned in even the smallest and most partial way.\u003cbr\u003e --- p.99\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e I have to express my true self in that way.\u003cbr\u003e Be more proactive and don't be conscious of people, just do what you want to do.\u003cbr\u003e Right now, your relationships are narrow and triangular, so they might sting you a lot. But isn't a hexagon closer to a circle than an octagon? As your relationships become more diverse and deep, they'll become rounder and more numb, like a circle, stinging you less.\u003cbr\u003e It'll be okay.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.101\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Suddenly, my sense of victimization kicked in.\u003cbr\u003e Last week, two boys seemed to be treating my friend better than the other.\u003cbr\u003e Since that guy was originally popular, I thought, 'It seems like they both like each other.'\u003cbr\u003e 'But you don't like me? Maybe it's because I'm unattractive and ugly.' I'm suffering from this self-loathing feeling all alone (Oh, this is really hard to write. \u003cbr\u003e(He seems like a crazy kid).\u003cbr\u003e I hated myself for thinking like this.\u003cbr\u003e What's really weird is, if I go to a new meetup and no one is interested in me, I'm going crazy.\u003cbr\u003e I base my standards of worth on the opposite sex, and I wait for them to evaluate me, not me evaluating them.\u003cbr\u003e What's even funnier is that I want guys to like me even though I have no romantic interest in them whatsoever.\u003cbr\u003e Oh, I hate myself so much and I'm not very good at it.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.117\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e And speaking of self-esteem, I thought about this a lot: I think about that damn thing called self-esteem. I think, \"What if it's high, and what if it's low, and why do they make such a fuss about it?\"\u003cbr\u003e But if you read books, there are many passages that say, 'You have to love yourself to be able to love others and be loved yourself. If you ignore yourself, others will ignore you too.'\u003cbr\u003e I felt like that didn't make sense.\u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e --- p.133\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003ePublisher's Review\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e  \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cb\u003e“It’s okay, the person without the shade\u003cbr\u003e “I can’t understand light”\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e When things get tough, we kill ourselves again.\u003cbr\u003e Because they hate themselves for being so difficult, they take depression seriously and censor themselves even when they are sad.\u003cbr\u003e In the midst of all this, I worry about what other people think, and I reproach myself for that once again.\u003cbr\u003e Then you get tired and fall into a state of lethargy.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “I consider myself weak, and I think other people know how weak I am.\u003cbr\u003e Even if I speak confidently, I feel like my inner weakness will be exposed.\u003cbr\u003e I'm afraid it might look bad.\u003cbr\u003e But in fact, no one ever ignored me, and I was the one who ignored myself the most.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “It’s a kind of self-punishing desire.\u003cbr\u003e Even if you get angry, you immediately become a sinner.\u003cbr\u003e That's because I've built up an idealized version of myself by borrowing things that look better here and there.\u003cbr\u003e I want to become a person with some absolute standard. \u003cbr\u003eBut when things are tough, I am the one who has it the hardest.\u003cbr\u003e “That’s neither petty nor selfish.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e There is no sorrow in the world that is unusual.\u003cbr\u003e There is even less reason to ask someone to agree with your sadness.\u003cbr\u003e So we can say:\u003cbr\u003e I'm scared and burdened by the freedom and choices I've suddenly been given, and in fact, I'm depressed.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e“What do I want?\u003cbr\u003e I want to love and be loved.\u003cbr\u003e “Be comfortable, without any doubts, that’s all.”\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e We want to love and be loved, we want to live a life with more good things than bad things, and we want to know how to not hurt ourselves.\u003cbr\u003e Even if I experience failure, I want to turn my eyes in a better direction.\u003cbr\u003e It's just painful because you don't know how.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e The author was always plagued by an inexplicable thirst and emptiness, and needed empathy from people like himself.\u003cbr\u003e So instead of wandering around looking for such people, I decided to become that person myself. \u003cbr\u003eI decided to wave my hand vigorously to let people know I was here.\u003cbr\u003e I hope that someone will recognize my gestures, which are similar to their own, and come closer to me so that we can feel safe together.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Why are we depressed?\u003cbr\u003e The reason is obvious.\u003cbr\u003e Because I want to live better, because I don't want to get sick.\u003cbr\u003e Depression is based on hope.\u003cbr\u003e Without hope, you can't even be sad.\u003cbr\u003e I hope this book gives you the confidence that even if your day isn't perfect, it can still be a good day, and that life is about being able to smile once over something small, even after feeling down all day.\u003cbr\u003e As long as we don't give up, we can continue to live, laugh, and cry. \u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%;padding-top:20px;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:16px;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e GOODS SPECIFICS \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:14px;line-height:1.6em;\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:100%;margin-bottom:5px;line-height:1.6em;font-size:14px\"\u003e - 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