For all who face fear
The True Story of Moses

The story of Moses, the man behind the hero Moses

Moses is remembered as a great leader in the Bible and a hero revered by later generations, but behind his life were human struggles and frustrations.
There was a time when his people were persecuted, he had to be raised by two mothers, and he had to flee into the wilderness because he belonged to neither of them.
When he went before the king of Egypt, he hesitated in fear while leading the Israelites through the wilderness, and he lost his way because of anger.
Moses, the young man who committed murder and ran away, Moses, the weak man who hesitated and made excuses before God's calling, Moses, the leader who was exhausted and angry at the complaints and resentment of the people in the wilderness.
This book shows how God deals with Moses and what grace He gives him through this process.
This makes Moses not just a legend of the past, but a story for all of us who walk through the wilderness of this age.

For Moses, the age of 40 was the loneliest, most miserable, and most vulgar time of his life.
However, this is only a situation that is visible to human eyes; everything is happening under God's providence.
If it weren't for the identity crisis, doubts, and murders that plagued him in his luxurious palace life, he wouldn't have been able to easily let go of the splendor of the palace.
Moses sets out on the path of exile because he knows he cannot escape punishment.
It's called exile, but it's actually a midnight flight.
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It is a struggle and an escape.
It is the moment of hatching from the egg.
The wilderness is the path prepared by God.
The journey through the wilderness was an inevitable path not for the leaders of Egypt but for the leaders of the wilderness.
If he had been a Canaanite leader, there would have been no wilderness training.
Because he was destined to live as a leader in the wilderness for 40 years, God led him out into the wilderness through a murder incident.
The wilderness was his school, his teacher, and his training ground.
So Moses is thrown out of the Egyptian palace into the wilderness and begins his teaching practice in a wilderness school classroom.
--- p.49

While tending sheep, Moses learned the leadership of a good shepherd, not royal leadership.
There were no teachers to teach leadership in the Midian wilderness, and no students to participate in student teaching.
The sheep he drove around every day were his students, and from their habits he learned the nature of the people he would meet in the future.
It is also knowledge learned in the wilderness that people and sheep have the same habits.
As Moses learned the habits of sheep, he abandoned commanding leadership and learned serving shepherd leadership.
I didn't know it then.
As he was reborn as a leader in the wilderness, he saw the foolish people acting as they pleased like foolish sheep, and only then did he learn true leadership.
--- p.56~57

Moses' life as a Midianite shepherd ended when he witnessed the burning bush and he immediately set out for Egypt.
So there was no time for deeper spiritual training on Mount Horeb.
My brother Aaron didn't have much of a spiritual influence either.
There was no fellowship with the Hebrew spiritual leaders of the land of Goshen.
The courage he displayed in the confrontation with Pharaoh, the boldness before the Red Sea, and the dignity he displayed while leading a large tribe without hesitation are more indicative of leadership than spirituality.
The life in the wilderness with the people was a long and painful war of attrition that could not be sustained through leadership alone.
In that environment, the circumstances were not conducive to acquiring spirituality.
However, anyone who sees him as a leader in the wilderness will see that his leadership is not simple.
The faith that leads people to prayer whenever they grumble and complain, and the future blueprint that excludes the leaders of the twelve tribes who were chosen as spies and establishes Joshua and Caleb as leaders of Canaan, are not easy to achieve without spirituality.
The ability to raise both hands high in prayer and render Amalek helpless was not just a tactic.
Everything is the power of spirituality, the power of prayer spirituality.
When did Moses learn, experience, and grow in the power of spirituality?
--- p.197~198

Israel's wandering in the wilderness was not the result of a great sin.
Simply choosing the majority decision resulted in fatal consequences.
The majority of them replaced God's promise.
There is an illusion of legitimacy in the majority.
The report of the spies, who gathered together in large numbers, was based on facts, but did not take God into account, and the people believed in the rationality of the majority.
Wouldn't the perspective of ten people be more accurate in their judgment, so I chose that side.
Moses used this incident as an opportunity to filter, coordinate, and synthesize the opinions of the majority, and also listen to the opinions of the minority.
As people died, I began to see the picture of God through reflection and meditation, rather than seeing sin.
God had a different picture for young people.
So, God is slowly achieving His goal of generational change.
--- p.218~219

Moses' life was not sufficiently rewarded, and he did not even leave behind a tomb or monument to commemorate him, let alone enter Canaan.
I ended up like an unfortunate person who was used when needed and rudely discarded when not needed.
Moses was thus rewarded.
It was a very late compensation, after about 1,400 years, but it was a tremendous compensation.
When I was leaving this world, I consoled myself by looking at Canaan from afar, but now I am looking out over the whole of Canaan from the center of Canaan, from the high peak of Jerusalem.
There was a time when I was frustrated because I was not rewarded for my efforts in faith.
But God is watching.
We must live and die leaving the size and timing of God's reward entirely to the Lord.
Rewards will be received here, in heaven, in my children's generation, or in the distant future, when our descendants will receive the rewards that our ancestors have planted.
Look at Moses.

--- p.283~288