{"product_id":"133866","title":"I decided not to cry when I eat strawberries ","description":"\u003ccenter\u003e\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/tmgdisk01.cafe24.com\/images\/vs\/4172\/sv\/uOtD5RKzrxnyu9DGYQp61lq45Nf.png?v=1765020790\" style=\"max-width:100%;max-height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\u003ccenter\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:center;font-size:30px;font-weight:bolder;line-height:1.6em\"\u003e I decided not to cry when I eat strawberries \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"border-bottom:1px;border-bottom-style:dotted;border-color:;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable align=\"center\" width=\"100%\"\u003e\u003ctbody style=\"border:0px\"\u003e\n\n\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd align=\"center\" style=\"line-height:1.2em;text-align:center;font-size:18px;color:black;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px;\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\n\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"text-align:center\"\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/image.yes24.com\/goods\/147562313\/XL\" style=\"max-width:100%;height:auto\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/tbody\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%;{split_style6}padding-top:20px;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:16px;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e Description \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;word-break:break-all;font-size:14px;line-height:1.6em;\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eBook Introduction\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e \u003cb\u003e“My dream is to die happily at the age of twenty-five.\u003cbr\u003e “It’s a bit of a dark life, but please don’t hate me too much.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e ※ Caution: You may get red strawberry juice while reading.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Average cumulative number of live broadcast viewers: 30,000…\u003cbr\u003e The more you look at it, the more strangely it becomes. The first essay by Ryu Rai, a TikToker with 500,000 followers.\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Ryu Rai, a TikToker with 500,000 followers, is revealing her stories, which she couldn't tell on TV, such as bullying, illness, and dreams, for the first time in the form of a secret diary with her fans. \u003cbr\u003e“Everyone has a secret they only want to tell their best friend.” This book is the story of Ryu Lai, a 20-something Bangkok creator who says her wish is to die happily at the age of 25, but confesses that she must live hard every day for her parents, whom she loves the most in the world, and who first came into the world under her real name, ‘Yoo So-hee.’\u003cbr\u003e His story may seem unusual at first glance, but it also resembles a secret story that anyone who has experienced a precarious and innocent childhood has at least one.\u003cbr\u003e The appendix contains messages of support sent by the author's fandom, the Ryu Family, in the form of rolling paper.\u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cul\u003e\u003cli\u003e You can preview some of the book's contents.\u003cbr\u003e \u003cspan\u003ePreview\u003c\/span\u003e\n\n\u003c\/li\u003e\u003c\/ul\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eindex\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e Prologue_ I've written my heart here, now it's your turn\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e A secret, my friend\u003cbr\u003e “Hello? I don’t have any friends, so please take good care of me.”\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003eTwo Secrets, Japanese\u003cbr\u003e “Let’s just say it’s a game, a Japanese game.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Secret Three: Diet\u003cbr\u003e “Why doesn’t my face change like theirs when I use a fake filter?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Secret Four, Strawberry\u003cbr\u003e “The darker the strawberry, the sweeter it is.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Five Secrets, TikTok\u003cbr\u003e “Why do you guys like me?”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Six Secrets, Introverts\u003cbr\u003e “Before I knew it, there was no one left around me.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Secret Seven Eggs, Family\u003cbr\u003e “I will die before Mom and Dad, so I will not see the end of them.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Epilogue_ If you hate me more after reading this\u003cbr\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eDetailed image\u003c\/b\u003e \u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cimg src=\"https:\/\/image.yes24.com\/momo\/TopCate5369\/MidCate002\/536813198(1).jpg\" border=\"0\" alt=\"Detailed Image 1\"\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003eInto the book\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e Guilty pleasure.\u003cbr\u003e It is a combination of the words 'Guilty', meaning guilt, and 'Pleasure', meaning joy.\u003cbr\u003e Liu Lai's life is a mixture of guilt and joy.\u003cbr\u003e Eating too much is not good for your health, but you can't stop eating sweet and sour raw strawberries. \u003cbr\u003eI suffer from malicious comments that are so severe that my self-esteem is crumbling, but I can't quit TikTok because it allows me to meet the Ryu family children who love me.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.10 From the \"Prologue\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e “Hey, don’t you smell like lard?” The moment I heard that guy say that, I knew right away that he was talking to me.\u003cbr\u003e He poured the food on his plate into the trash can without taking a single bite and ran out of the cafeteria.\u003cbr\u003e Usually, I eat everything because I feel bad about wasting food, but at that moment, I didn't even think about it.\u003cbr\u003e That day, it was my favorite menu, but I threw it all in the trash and ran away to the infirmary.\u003cbr\u003e (It was a stir-fried pork dish.) Then I covered myself with the blanket on the bed in the infirmary and cried.\u003cbr\u003e I haven't been to the cafeteria since then.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.30 From \"A Secret, Friend\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e The school I chose was a specialized high school. \u003cbr\u003eWhen I was in my third year of middle school, many specialized high schools came to our school to promote their admissions.\u003cbr\u003e But in my eyes, it was all just so-so.\u003cbr\u003e I focused solely on evaluating the design of the school uniform.\u003cbr\u003e Middle school life was tough, but I was truly happy when I looked at the uniforms of my seniors who came to promote the high school I would go to.\u003cbr\u003e It was even better because I could kill time during boring classes.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.83 From \"Two Secrets, Japanese\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Actually, that wasn't the first time I seriously considered plastic surgery.\u003cbr\u003e When I first turned twenty, I wanted to completely transform my appearance overnight, like the main character in a drama.\u003cbr\u003e To do that, I had to lose weight first.\u003cbr\u003e So the surgery that came to mind at the time was ‘full body plastic surgery.’ \u003cbr\u003eBecause I was so daunted by the thought of starting a diet, I considered shortcuts like full body liposuction, hoping to buy a completely different 20s with money.\u003cbr\u003e Of course, I have now succeeded in dieting on my own.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.152 From “The Three Secrets of Diet”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e After sitting in the rattling car for a while, I felt very uncomfortable.\u003cbr\u003e Moreover, since it was a road going down to the countryside, there were many unpaved roads.\u003cbr\u003e In the violently shaking car, the undigested strawberries in my stomach began to reflux little by little.\u003cbr\u003e I tried desperately to stop the reflux, but the strawberries were already so far up my throat that I couldn't handle it.\u003cbr\u003e I tried covering my mouth with my hand, but it wasn't enough.\u003cbr\u003e In the end, I ended up pouring all the strawberries I had eaten on the back of my brother's head who was sitting in front of me.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e --- p.165 From \"Secret Four, Strawberry\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e You say I'm mentally immature? Well, I won't deny it. \u003cbr\u003eBut what can we do?\u003cbr\u003e They say that when I laugh and chat with them while broadcasting live, my mind feels at ease.\u003cbr\u003e Isn't it wrong to find ways to calm my mind and find comfort? They can temporarily cure my mental illness, which countless doctors from prestigious universities and all the medications they've prescribed have failed to address.\u003cbr\u003e --- p.222 From \"Five Secrets, TikTok\"\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e 'Ah, I used to be quite an active person.' In the past, when I was home alone, I would always turn on music, dance, and get lost in my own world, becoming a virtual idol.\u003cbr\u003e Right now, I'm just going to blankly stare and breathe and be done with it.\u003cbr\u003e I realize how much I have changed.\u003cbr\u003e How would my parents feel if they were watching me like this?\u003cbr\u003e As I write this, I feel it once again.\u003cbr\u003e And once again I start to fall into self-loathing.\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003e--- p.275 From “Six Secrets, Introverts”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e A life where I can die whenever I want to die.\u003cbr\u003e How happy I am just imagining it.\u003cbr\u003e Life is such that I don't know if I'll die tomorrow or the day after.\u003cbr\u003e I think that being able to die whenever you want is a pretty happy fate, unless you die in a corner because something happened and you think, \"If I'm going to live like this, I'd rather just die.\"\u003cbr\u003e Please note that this is just my thoughts on happiness.\u003cbr\u003e Anyway, I hope that the stereotype that death is always a negative thing will disappear.\u003cbr\u003e I would like to say that there is a life that becomes comfortable through death.\u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e --- p.304 From “Seven Secrets, Family”\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cbr\u003e\u003cdiv\u003e\u003ch5\u003e \u003cb\u003ePublisher's Review\u003c\/b\u003e\n\u003c\/h5\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e \u003cb\u003e“I have written my heart honestly here, so now it is your turn.”\u003cbr\u003e The secret diary of a 20-something who appears sweet on the outside but is easily crushed on the inside.\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e \u003cbr\u003eIt's strange, but the more you look at it, the more you fall in love with it. The true story of Ryu Rai, a TikTok user with 500,000 followers, revealed for the first time in her book, \"I Decided Not to Cry When Eating Strawberries,\" has been published.\u003cbr\u003e The book contains a complex emotional map of women in their teens and twenties living today, scattered here and there like crushed strawberries.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Author Liu Lai was bullied as a child simply because he was fatter than his peers, and was told he “smelled like lard.”\u003cbr\u003e She worked all kinds of part-time jobs without sleeping, saying she wanted to make money quickly and get plastic surgery to become prettier, but ended up with water in her heart and a tumor in her neck.\u003cbr\u003e My last refuge in life was TikTok, and people started joining my live stream one by one without thinking.\u003cbr\u003e The number of users was in the single digits at first, then double digits the next day, then triple digits after a few days, and sometimes even quadruple digits on some days. \u003cbr\u003e“Why on earth are people looking at me?” That’s how the introverted Ryu Rai met the ‘Ryu family’s children.’\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“Don’t let anxiety cause you to lose your hidden light!”\u003cbr\u003e Feeling late, absent from the world... A record of emotions woven together from hearts that haven't yet graduated.\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e The life of the eccentric character Ryu Rai was filled with misfortune and anxiety, but there were always adults by her side who fulfilled their roles until the end.\u003cbr\u003e The nurse who willingly gave up her own lunch box for Ryu Lai, who was afraid to go to the cafeteria; the professor who performed the surgery who tried hard not to leave a scar on the little girl's face; the company president who treated Ryu Lai as a colleague from beginning to end; and the mother and father who loved their daughter more than anyone else.\u003cbr\u003e They did not judge Ryu Lai lightly, nor did they give up on him easily.\u003cbr\u003e Just being there for me.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003eAdults judge children too easily, and children just try to become adults quickly.\u003cbr\u003e Nevertheless, we can be each other's breathing space.\u003cbr\u003e This might be the real conclusion of \"Don't Cry When You Eat Strawberries.\"\u003cbr\u003e And perhaps the author can provide a small breathing space for other Ryurais who read this book somewhere? Ryurai says:\u003cbr\u003e “Don’t let anxiety defeat you and lose your hidden light.\u003cbr\u003e “I hope you never do the foolish things I did in the past.”\u003cbr\u003e \u003cb\u003e\u003cbr\u003e“The darker the strawberry, the sweeter it is.”\u003cbr\u003e Unhappy Yet Happy: Korea's First Guilty Pleasure Essay That Will Raise Someone's Daily Sugar Level by 1%\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e - A friend who turns on internet broadcasting alone in his room because reality is lonely.\u003cbr\u003e - A friend searching for 'how to be sick without showing it' in the hospital waiting room \u003cbr\u003e- A friend who is embarrassed and wants to run away, but endures the moment with 'laughter'\u003cbr\u003e - And countless nameless teenagers and people in their twenties who survive the day with someone's comment online.\u003cbr\u003e - Parents who want to understand their teenage daughters, even though they used harsh words today.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e Was your mood sweet enough today, or sour and bitter? After reading this unusual book, a tangled web of melancholy and joy, disgust and love, listlessness and cheerfulness, you'll come to a clearer perspective on the \"guilty pleasures\" within us, seemingly contradictory yet perhaps all genuine.\u003cbr\u003e If your life feels like it's been squashed and crushed like a leftover strawberry, this book might just add 1% to the sweetness of a gloomy day.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e \u003cbr\u003eAs we take a peek into the life of this quirky, bubbly author, who smiles brightly and says her dream is to die happily at the age of twenty-five, let's believe that it's okay to feel hurt, and that there are definitely sweet and sour strawberries somewhere in your life.\u003cbr\u003e Now all we have to do is take a big bite of that big, delicious strawberry inside us. \u003cbr\u003e\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003cdiv\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:95%;padding-top:20px;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:16px;font-weight:bold;padding-bottom:20px\"\u003e GOODS SPECIFICS \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"text-align:left;font-size:14px;line-height:1.6em;\"\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:100%;margin-bottom:5px;line-height:1.6em;font-size:14px\"\u003e - \u003cstrong\u003eDate of issue:\u003c\/strong\u003e June 13, 2025\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:100%;margin-bottom:5px;line-height:1.6em;font-size:14px\"\u003e - \u003cstrong\u003ePage count, weight, size:\u003c\/strong\u003e 332 pages | 125*188*30mm\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:100%;margin-bottom:5px;line-height:1.6em;font-size:14px\"\u003e - \u003cstrong\u003eISBN13:\u003c\/strong\u003e 9791199023253\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003cdiv style=\"width:100%;margin-bottom:5px;line-height:1.6em;font-size:14px\"\u003e - \u003cstrong\u003eISBN10:\u003c\/strong\u003e 1199023256 \u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/div\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003ccenter\u003e\u003ctable\u003e\u003ctr\u003e\u003ctd style=\"height:10px\"\u003e\u003c\/td\u003e\u003c\/tr\u003e\u003c\/table\u003e\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\u003cspan\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\n\n\u003c\/center\u003e\n\n\n\u003c\/center\u003e","brand":"LIBRAIRIE COREENNE","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":43891333562410,"sku":"133866","price":31.0,"currency_code":"EUR","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0683\/2750\/5962\/files\/0780e43acd29e8516fb4020797379e02.jpg?v=1765323098","url":"https:\/\/librairie.coreenne.fr\/en\/products\/133866","provider":"LIBRAIRIE COREENNE","version":"1.0","type":"link"}