Today is a difficult and breathless day for everyone.
It's too early to give up and despair.
Because our build-up is still in progress.

In the video, C-group is holding Cheon Kang-ho's ankles like shackles, so he can't even dream.
Will Kang-ho, who lives each day like an emotionless robot, feeling like even laughing or breathing is a sin, ever be able to soar again? Whether he'll be C or Cheon Kang-ho, the life he chooses is entirely up to Kang-ho.
Kang-ho vows to himself that he will no longer live as C and that he will take back the name his mom and dad gave him, Cheon Kang-ho.

Today, I spent the whole day searching for videos and reading comments posted on the Internet.
After reading the terrible curses directed at me, my whole body trembled.
As others have said, I ruined a child's future, his life.

--- p.9

It was a mistake.
I believed that I would be accepted just the way I was, without any explanation needed.
Maybe those kids were giving me a reprieve.
It must have taken me a while to figure out if I was a monster or not.
They would have watched me with bated breath, wondering if I was violent enough to swing my fists without warning, if I was so reckless that no one could stop me.
They must have been confused about which version of me they imagined from the juvenile detention center was real and which version of me was real.
The result is always the same.
Children are like ghosts.
Who is weak and who is strong.
Which side am I on?

--- p.14

The next day, Taesu's parents edited and uploaded the video to the school soccer band and youth soccer websites across the country.
It must have been pure parental anger at the prospect of his son, who had known nothing but soccer for so long, having his future dashed.
And a few days later, an article about 'C, who injured a promising teammate with a deliberate, murderous tackle' appeared in the sports section of an online newspaper.
There was also an interview article with Kim, who said that C seemed to harbor resentment after being pushed out of the competition with an injured player.
In particular, my eyes lingered for a long time on the words victim and perpetrator.
That's how I became C.

--- p.52~53

“If you just hide and do nothing like you are now, nothing will change.
It means you have to live as C forever.
If you don't like it... … .”
Go Young-pyo glanced at me and said.
“You can run again.
Show people a different side of yourself.
Proving your name on the field, whether those people curse or not.
That's how you can live as Cheon Kang-ho, not C.
“Without running away like a coward.”
I was stunned, as if I had been hit.
The flushed face was hot.
--- p.92

At that moment, Go Young-pyo passed me a ball.
I caught the ball with my toes.
Then he stared intently at the ball at his feet.
It wasn't a dream, as the soft feel of the round ball was vivid.
Suddenly, I felt like crying.
What on earth is this… … .
I took a deep breath to calm my pounding heart.
Then I gently rolled the surface of the ball with the sole of my foot.
I could feel the ball's curve across the soles of my feet.
okay.
There is a ball under my feet.
And this little ball is another world to me.
It took me too long to admit this fact.
'Okay, since we've started, let's do it right!'
I watched the children rush forward one by one and made a resolution to myself.

--- p.122

"Hey, but why didn't you tell me that Taesu was bullying me? I'm the one who's really upset."
After laughing out loud, Seongbin became serious and spoke.
“That... was a bit difficult to say honestly.
“I have pride too.”
It really was like that.
I hoped that Seongbin didn't know that I was acting like Taesu's puppet.
Whatever the reason, that was the last of my pride.
In the end, I couldn't keep it.
“Well, in that situation, I think I would have acted like you.
“I should have known about that bastard Taesu since the bad rumors started coming out.”
“It’s all my fault, you know.”
“Hey, does that make sense? It’s not like you did it on purpose or anything…
That was a mistake.
Of course I understand your position, but it was clearly wrong for Taesu to use that to harass you.”
“The governor must have felt wronged too.
You know how kids who play soccer feel.
“I can’t help but hate myself for blowing a great opportunity right in front of my eyes.”
“You punk, that’s your problem.
“Always think of others before yourself.”
“It’s because I’m kind of cool.”
“That crazy guy.”
Seongbin shook his head.

--- p.126