Here is the front of every dawn
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Book Introduction
“This book is the 21st century’s ‘No Longer Human’!”
★★★★★ Nominee for the 37th Mishima Yukio Award ★★★★★
★★★★★ Winner of the 11th Hayakawa SF Award Special Prize ★★★★★
★★★★★ Nominee for the 56th Seiun Award ★★★★★
★★★★★ Best Japanese Science Fiction Novels of 2024 ★★★★★
“I want to be truly loved by someone
Why won't this feeling go away?
I longed for death, but
Rather, I received surgery that would make me immortal.
A man's pure monologue
The novel "Here is Every Dawn," which was nominated for the Mishima Yukio Award, given to a new writer with literary talent, and won the Hayakawa SF Special Award in recognition of its experimental nature and originality, is now meeting domestic readers.
This work became a bestseller immediately after its publication, receiving enthusiastic support from readers and receiving recognition for both its artistic value and popularity.
Mamiya Gai, the young author who debuted with this book, has become a bestselling author, but he is an enigmatic author who is extremely reluctant to give interviews or be exposed to the public, and devotes himself solely to his work by publishing short stories and essays in literary magazines.
As soon as 『Here is Every Dawn』 was published, it became a word-of-mouth hit, with publishers and bookstore employees raving about it, saying things like, “We’ve witnessed the birth of a new literature,” and “This is a novel that people will still read in 100 years.” Soon, readers also responded with comments like, “This book is the 『No Longer Human』 of the 21st century!”, “I couldn’t stop crying,” and “This is a human novel.” “It’s lonely, sad, and happy all at once.
He responded with the comment, “I read a great book.”
Japanese singer and actor Gendo Hoshino, who is well known in Korea, also publicly confessed his affection for the author through a radio program, saying, “I’m glad I’m alive to be able to read a work like this.”
★★★★★ Nominee for the 37th Mishima Yukio Award ★★★★★
★★★★★ Winner of the 11th Hayakawa SF Award Special Prize ★★★★★
★★★★★ Nominee for the 56th Seiun Award ★★★★★
★★★★★ Best Japanese Science Fiction Novels of 2024 ★★★★★
“I want to be truly loved by someone
Why won't this feeling go away?
I longed for death, but
Rather, I received surgery that would make me immortal.
A man's pure monologue
The novel "Here is Every Dawn," which was nominated for the Mishima Yukio Award, given to a new writer with literary talent, and won the Hayakawa SF Special Award in recognition of its experimental nature and originality, is now meeting domestic readers.
This work became a bestseller immediately after its publication, receiving enthusiastic support from readers and receiving recognition for both its artistic value and popularity.
Mamiya Gai, the young author who debuted with this book, has become a bestselling author, but he is an enigmatic author who is extremely reluctant to give interviews or be exposed to the public, and devotes himself solely to his work by publishing short stories and essays in literary magazines.
As soon as 『Here is Every Dawn』 was published, it became a word-of-mouth hit, with publishers and bookstore employees raving about it, saying things like, “We’ve witnessed the birth of a new literature,” and “This is a novel that people will still read in 100 years.” Soon, readers also responded with comments like, “This book is the 『No Longer Human』 of the 21st century!”, “I couldn’t stop crying,” and “This is a human novel.” “It’s lonely, sad, and happy all at once.
He responded with the comment, “I read a great book.”
Japanese singer and actor Gendo Hoshino, who is well known in Korea, also publicly confessed his affection for the author through a radio program, saying, “I’m glad I’m alive to be able to read a work like this.”
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Preview
index
Preface to the Korean edition
1
2
3
Translator's Note
1
2
3
Translator's Note
Detailed image
Into the book
October 1, 2123. This is a mountainous area in Kyushu, a place now deserted.
What I'm going to talk about from now on is the story of my family, but actually, I'm not talking about it, I'm writing it.
101 years ago, my father asked me to write my family history. He said that in the future, my family members would grow old and die one by one, but since I had 'fusion surgery' to live a long time, I would have nothing to do and would be free. He thought that if I wrote a little bit every time a family member passed away, time would pass quickly and it would be nice. However, I like talking much more than writing, and until recently, God was with me, and I enjoyed telling Him all kinds of stories, so I had completely forgotten about my family history.
But God also died not long ago, and there was no one left to listen to my story, so I was bored and at a loss, and then my family history came to mind.
--- p.13
The reason I had fusion surgery in the first place was because I wanted to die, so what I originally wanted to have was not fusion surgery, but a 'suicide measure'.
(...) Some people suffer more because the medication doesn't work well, but I told my dad that I really wanted to die using this machine because it rapidly lowers the oxygen level inside the body, allowing you to die painlessly and surely as if you were falling asleep.
(...) But it was quite scary to see an adult with such a hurt expression making a scene just because I said one word about wanting to die. My dad wasn't sick at the time, but he must have known because he had seen me suffer more closely than anyone else, but as if he had never seen me before, he screamed "Eww" and ran to the kitchen, and then, with tears and a runny nose running down his face, he pointed a knife at me.
If you really want to die, I will kill you with my own hands and I will kill Dad too.
--- p.23
I see, so why do I live in such pain? It's so that I can have a child someday. I live for something that doesn't exist yet. Since humans are animals too, all of this is obviously natural. Most women want to have children during their lifetime after they are born, so Mr. Matsumoto speaks like he has the will to do so, so that I won't regret it someday.
Then I wasn't human to begin with.
The second best thing about having fusion surgery!
I became completely non-human!
--- p.48
It would be torture to have to keep living when you want to die. Since we can't choose to be born, at least the right to die should be guaranteed to all humans.
But fusion surgery is like taking away the right to die.
I kept hating you, because I thought my mother died because of you.
But if you could choose, you wouldn't have been born.
I guess I wasn't born because I wanted to be born.
When I started thinking about wanting to die, I finally understood.
It's so heartbreaking to think that they were born without permission and then end up being exploited their entire lives.
I was sorry.
--- p.77
I let Sayaka speak freely, because when you're in pain, it's good to talk and let everything out.
Just as I once vomited out what was above, I am now writing down things I have never told anyone before.
After talking for an hour or two and feeling better, Saya would disappear from the virtual space, but when she became sad again or scared of death, she would call me.
I was happy about that, because I love talking, so anything I could talk about was fine.
--- p.86
Mr. Tomura is a good person.
Even if it's work, please listen to my story until the end.
I thought I should complain to Mr. Tomura without hesitation.
I sincerely apologize to Mr. Tomura's boyfriend, girlfriend, and lovers.
But where is my heart?
What I'm going to talk about from now on is the story of my family, but actually, I'm not talking about it, I'm writing it.
101 years ago, my father asked me to write my family history. He said that in the future, my family members would grow old and die one by one, but since I had 'fusion surgery' to live a long time, I would have nothing to do and would be free. He thought that if I wrote a little bit every time a family member passed away, time would pass quickly and it would be nice. However, I like talking much more than writing, and until recently, God was with me, and I enjoyed telling Him all kinds of stories, so I had completely forgotten about my family history.
But God also died not long ago, and there was no one left to listen to my story, so I was bored and at a loss, and then my family history came to mind.
--- p.13
The reason I had fusion surgery in the first place was because I wanted to die, so what I originally wanted to have was not fusion surgery, but a 'suicide measure'.
(...) Some people suffer more because the medication doesn't work well, but I told my dad that I really wanted to die using this machine because it rapidly lowers the oxygen level inside the body, allowing you to die painlessly and surely as if you were falling asleep.
(...) But it was quite scary to see an adult with such a hurt expression making a scene just because I said one word about wanting to die. My dad wasn't sick at the time, but he must have known because he had seen me suffer more closely than anyone else, but as if he had never seen me before, he screamed "Eww" and ran to the kitchen, and then, with tears and a runny nose running down his face, he pointed a knife at me.
If you really want to die, I will kill you with my own hands and I will kill Dad too.
--- p.23
I see, so why do I live in such pain? It's so that I can have a child someday. I live for something that doesn't exist yet. Since humans are animals too, all of this is obviously natural. Most women want to have children during their lifetime after they are born, so Mr. Matsumoto speaks like he has the will to do so, so that I won't regret it someday.
Then I wasn't human to begin with.
The second best thing about having fusion surgery!
I became completely non-human!
--- p.48
It would be torture to have to keep living when you want to die. Since we can't choose to be born, at least the right to die should be guaranteed to all humans.
But fusion surgery is like taking away the right to die.
I kept hating you, because I thought my mother died because of you.
But if you could choose, you wouldn't have been born.
I guess I wasn't born because I wanted to be born.
When I started thinking about wanting to die, I finally understood.
It's so heartbreaking to think that they were born without permission and then end up being exploited their entire lives.
I was sorry.
--- p.77
I let Sayaka speak freely, because when you're in pain, it's good to talk and let everything out.
Just as I once vomited out what was above, I am now writing down things I have never told anyone before.
After talking for an hour or two and feeling better, Saya would disappear from the virtual space, but when she became sad again or scared of death, she would call me.
I was happy about that, because I love talking, so anything I could talk about was fine.
--- p.86
Mr. Tomura is a good person.
Even if it's work, please listen to my story until the end.
I thought I should complain to Mr. Tomura without hesitation.
I sincerely apologize to Mr. Tomura's boyfriend, girlfriend, and lovers.
But where is my heart?
--- p.108
Publisher's Review
“What is the purpose of living in such suffering?
“Is it so wrong to wish for death?”
Since I was young, I have always had a miserable life, vomiting out food as soon as I eat and suffering from nightmares that prevent me from sleeping.
I was neither alive nor dead because I couldn't eat or sleep properly.
Even though I went to the hospital, I didn't receive a specific diagnosis and my symptoms didn't improve, so I didn't go to school or work and spent a lot of time at home alone with my father.
In fact, 'I' had a deep wound.
25 years ago, my mother died while giving birth to me because of unstoppable bleeding.
My older brother and two older sisters, who were quite a bit older than me, openly hated me because they thought that my mother died because of me.
The more this happened, the more my father cherished and doted on me, but in reality, my father's misguided affection was making me even sicker.
Eating disorders, insomnia, abuse from her father, alienation from her siblings… … .
At the age of twenty-five, I desperately wished for death, as I had no regrets about a life filled with pain, but under pressure and threats from my father, I received a special surgery.
'Fusion surgery' that allows you to live forever with a young and beautiful appearance by replacing all parts of your body with machines without feeling physical pain.
But I didn't know it then.
Who knew that choosing eternal life would be another punishment for me?
Even in the face of endless suffering, he did not give up on being human.
A pure monologue from a beautiful yet cursed machine human.
It is painful to imagine all the contradictions of life colliding within one being.
After the surgery, he looks no different from a human, but in fact he is no longer human, and although he desperately wishes for death, he can never die.
'Only the brain blinks'. They believe that their emotions have disappeared, but they still have to take care of their families with tireless energy, and they pass on violence to their children because they have been subjected to violence and abuse and have not been able to overcome the wounds.
Some readers have compared this book to No Longer Human because of the protagonist's desperate situation, where he feels he has lost the right to live as a human being.
However, the protagonist of 'Here is Every Dawn', 'I', spends over 100 years struggling and suffering amidst countless contradictions and paradoxes, but unlike Yojo in 'No Longer Human', he does not despair and finally faces the truth.
True salvation begins with forgiving yourself and accepting your past as it is, rather than turning away from it, which is the cause of your suffering.
In order to become a better person and to break the chain of curse that was hidden in the name of love, 'I' chooses the path of extinction by accepting what I have done as it is and 'looking at' what I have done.
When a machine-like being gives up human life, paradoxically, it takes the most human path to salvation.
Therefore, this novel is a sublime record of a being who, though unable to live a human life, never gave up on being human more than anyone else, and is also a painful answer to the question, "What does it mean to survive as a human?"
The most private and nameless pain
The story of creating the most universal human being
The novel is told from the first-person perspective of the protagonist, but no one explicitly calls him by name.
My name is not properly called by my father, my older brother, or even by my nephew and lover, God, and even within the novel, it is written anonymously as ( ).
The reason the protagonist is not given a precise name is not simply because he is a nameless machine, but because he is an anonymous proxy who could be anyone who has been hurt.
In the preface, author Mamiya says that personal experience was the inspiration for writing this novel, and quotes Martin Scorsese's words, "The most personal is the most creative."
What the protagonist experiences in the novel is so personal, miserable, and tragic.
But at some point, readers will naturally fill in their own names in the blank spaces.
For those who have felt isolated from relationships or have pondered what it means to be human, this story is especially relevant to them and to the very nature of humanity.
So, while 『Here, Before Every Dawn』 wears the guise of science fiction, it asks what it means to survive as a human being, and about the pain, forgiveness, and recovery that we can never turn away from.
“Is it so wrong to wish for death?”
Since I was young, I have always had a miserable life, vomiting out food as soon as I eat and suffering from nightmares that prevent me from sleeping.
I was neither alive nor dead because I couldn't eat or sleep properly.
Even though I went to the hospital, I didn't receive a specific diagnosis and my symptoms didn't improve, so I didn't go to school or work and spent a lot of time at home alone with my father.
In fact, 'I' had a deep wound.
25 years ago, my mother died while giving birth to me because of unstoppable bleeding.
My older brother and two older sisters, who were quite a bit older than me, openly hated me because they thought that my mother died because of me.
The more this happened, the more my father cherished and doted on me, but in reality, my father's misguided affection was making me even sicker.
Eating disorders, insomnia, abuse from her father, alienation from her siblings… … .
At the age of twenty-five, I desperately wished for death, as I had no regrets about a life filled with pain, but under pressure and threats from my father, I received a special surgery.
'Fusion surgery' that allows you to live forever with a young and beautiful appearance by replacing all parts of your body with machines without feeling physical pain.
But I didn't know it then.
Who knew that choosing eternal life would be another punishment for me?
Even in the face of endless suffering, he did not give up on being human.
A pure monologue from a beautiful yet cursed machine human.
It is painful to imagine all the contradictions of life colliding within one being.
After the surgery, he looks no different from a human, but in fact he is no longer human, and although he desperately wishes for death, he can never die.
'Only the brain blinks'. They believe that their emotions have disappeared, but they still have to take care of their families with tireless energy, and they pass on violence to their children because they have been subjected to violence and abuse and have not been able to overcome the wounds.
Some readers have compared this book to No Longer Human because of the protagonist's desperate situation, where he feels he has lost the right to live as a human being.
However, the protagonist of 'Here is Every Dawn', 'I', spends over 100 years struggling and suffering amidst countless contradictions and paradoxes, but unlike Yojo in 'No Longer Human', he does not despair and finally faces the truth.
True salvation begins with forgiving yourself and accepting your past as it is, rather than turning away from it, which is the cause of your suffering.
In order to become a better person and to break the chain of curse that was hidden in the name of love, 'I' chooses the path of extinction by accepting what I have done as it is and 'looking at' what I have done.
When a machine-like being gives up human life, paradoxically, it takes the most human path to salvation.
Therefore, this novel is a sublime record of a being who, though unable to live a human life, never gave up on being human more than anyone else, and is also a painful answer to the question, "What does it mean to survive as a human?"
The most private and nameless pain
The story of creating the most universal human being
The novel is told from the first-person perspective of the protagonist, but no one explicitly calls him by name.
My name is not properly called by my father, my older brother, or even by my nephew and lover, God, and even within the novel, it is written anonymously as ( ).
The reason the protagonist is not given a precise name is not simply because he is a nameless machine, but because he is an anonymous proxy who could be anyone who has been hurt.
In the preface, author Mamiya says that personal experience was the inspiration for writing this novel, and quotes Martin Scorsese's words, "The most personal is the most creative."
What the protagonist experiences in the novel is so personal, miserable, and tragic.
But at some point, readers will naturally fill in their own names in the blank spaces.
For those who have felt isolated from relationships or have pondered what it means to be human, this story is especially relevant to them and to the very nature of humanity.
So, while 『Here, Before Every Dawn』 wears the guise of science fiction, it asks what it means to survive as a human being, and about the pain, forgiveness, and recovery that we can never turn away from.
GOODS SPECIFICS
- Date of issue: July 30, 2025
- Format: Hardcover book binding method guide
- Page count, weight, size: 152 pages | 304g | 127*188*17mm
- ISBN13: 9791130668383
- ISBN10: 113066838X
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