★ 『The Words of the Buddha in the First Translation』 Ryunosuke Koike's masterpiece ★
★ The return of the author of a bestseller that sold over a million copies in Korea and Japan ★

“Where are you now?
“Get away from everything that causes you pain!”

Desire, the source of stress, anger, which consumes the mind, and delusion, which ruins things.
In the midst of the emotional vortex that shakes life, take out Buddha and read!

Every day we are consumed by anger that destroys our bodies and minds.
Exhausted from extreme stress, they get angry over small things and suffer from unhappy feelings.
Sometimes we justify our anger and pain as necessary, but in the end, we can't control the anger that explodes, and it often turns our hearts into hell.
Trapped in the cycle of misfortune, we are once again swept away by uncontrollable emotions.
“No one gets angry because they are happy,” asserts Ryunosuke Koike, the author of “When My Heart is Hell,” and a renowned Japanese mentor.
After facing his own anger and turning to Buddhism, he found enlightenment and studied the patterns of anger and the behaviors that led to unhappiness, finding a path to peace.
And this book contains the author's 'mind study method' that will help you control your worries and lead a peaceful life.


This book is full of practical advice for those who are hurt by the three afflictions of desire, anger, and delusion.
We present a variety of mind control strategies that can be applied directly in real life, including the practice of letting go of vain desires and facing the anger in your heart, the walking Zen training of focusing on the present without being swayed by emotions, and the wisdom of respecting yourself and achieving peace, with abundant examples.
For those who have been suppressing their misfortune and suffering, “When My Heart Was Hell,” Buddha Spoken will present a new standard for a more peaceful and happy life.

Desire arises from the pain of what is not yet attainable.
So the force to eliminate this pain gives rise to various actions.
If we lived in a fairy tale where we could get what we wanted the moment we thought about it, there might not be a problem.
But in the real world, there is a time lag between the moment you think you want something and the moment you actually get it.
So, the unpleasant feeling continues until the desire is fulfilled.
'I want it, but I can't get it yet, it's so frustrating!'
This is the fundamental problem with desire.
…Whether we know it or not, the discomfort we feel from not being able to fulfill our desires builds up as negative energy in our subconscious.
Then, one day, it becomes a seed that creates another pain.
In other words, the unpleasantness caused by desire is not a one-time thing, but rather it causes a chain reaction, which is why it is scary.
Discomfort itself is a mental problem, but a mind saturated with discomfort creates unpleasant substances, such as norepinephrine and adrenaline, that damage the body.
--- From "Chapter 1: Desire Brings Pain"

If you get caught up in random thoughts like, "What should I do tomorrow?" or "Oh, my favorite celebrity is on TV" while eating, your consciousness will be drawn to something other than the sensations related to the meal.
The sense of having eaten this much also decreases.
Then, the desire increases to compensate for the lack of reality.
There are other downsides to being caught up in a delusion and losing consciousness of what you are doing now, beyond simply losing your sense of reality.
The less you feel a sense of accomplishment in what you're doing, the more boring it feels, which also becomes a new source of stress.


Modern people find even the small physical movements of alternating spoons bothersome and want to minimize them as much as possible.
You can see people eating without putting their chopsticks or bowls down on the table, all the time.
Not only does this diet seem undignified, it also labels every movement as "tedious and boring."
Because of boredom, your consciousness becomes distracted and you end up wandering around, thinking useless thoughts like, 'I'm tired today' or 'What on earth will I be doing this time next year?'
And this acts as a new stressor.
--- From "Chapter 1: Desire Brings Pain"

There are many people in the world who compete, fight, or work hard because they are driven by the pain caused by anger.
However, the unpleasant substances secreted because of it become stressful and put a great burden on the body and mind.
Not only that, but the good energy that has been built up over time disappears, and the delicate mind that the person originally had also becomes damaged.
Even when we become upset over something trivial, rather than out of intense anger, these biochemical reactions occur in our bodies, to varying degrees.
Anger acts as a magnetic field and attracts others.
It hardens the other person's mind and causes irritation.
So, I also get caught in a vicious cycle of growing anger.
--- From "Chapter 2 Anger Hurts Me"

To overcome the impulsive energy of delusion and cultivate self-control, it is effective to train your consciousness to focus on the reality of the present moment.
For example, when you are walking, 'your right foot is now lifted off the ground.
Now the right foot is moving forward.
This is a training exercise that makes the conscious sensor strongly aware of every movement by thinking, 'I just felt the sensation of touching the ground.'
If you practice this properly, it can be considered a rudimentary form of 'walking Zen', but even if you don't, you can still see results if you walk with awareness so that your consciousness doesn't wander while commuting to and from work or while taking a walk.
However, the mind hates obvious sensations, so even if you try to focus on the sensations in your feet, your consciousness keeps trying to escape to distracting thoughts like desire or anger.
But you shouldn't kneel there.
Whenever your consciousness wanders somewhere else, quickly notice it and say, "Oh, my mind was somewhere else," and immediately return your consciousness to the sensation in your legs.
--- From "Chapter 3: Delusion Dulls Ability"

For example, if a customer makes an order that you absolutely cannot fulfill, and you think you can just get the contract and then say, “Yes, that’s fine.”
Let's say he answered, "I'll do it somehow."
As a result, it is common for promises to not be kept.
In an attempt to make an excuse so that the business partner doesn't feel offended, I said, "I thought it would work, but my boss didn't approve it.
Even if you try to gloss over it with something like, “I’m sorry,” the business partner will get the impression that this person is an untrustworthy person who only makes promises with words and then runs away, blaming his superiors when things go wrong.
This is a good example of how, without having any rules to follow, you get carried away by immediate gains and end up losing money.
I didn't strategically decide to get the contract and say, 'Okay, let's follow my desires!'
When I suddenly realized it, I was already caught up in the impulse energy of desire and was caught up in the development of 'Answer me, it'll work out somehow!'

--- From "Chapter 5: Mind Training to Free Yourself from Delusion"