On my twenty-ninth birthday, I decided to die a year later.
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★10th Anniversary 'Sparkling Edition' Published! ★ A Bestseller That Gave Courage to Hundreds of Thousands of Readers "A Birthday Alone and a Strawberry Cake That Fell on the Floor... The Moment I Reached Out to the Dust-Covered Strawberries, Tears Started to Flow" The legendary steady seller, 《On My Twenty-Nineth Birthday, I Decided to Die a Year Later》, which has been consistently loved by domestic readers through endless word-of-mouth, has been republished in a 'Sparkling Edition' to commemorate its 10th anniversary. In terms of age, 'nine' is a burdensome number as it means we are on the verge of entering a new generation. In particular, the age of 'twenty-nine' is even more significant because it means that you are just about to turn thirty, when you must take some responsibility for your life, and so it can be a turning point in your life. You will find much empathy and hope in the story of Amari, who, at the age of twenty-nine, had no choice but to give herself one year to live. |
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Prologue
D-12 months
Twenty-nine comes in quiet despair
The sin of 'having nothing to do'
The world has no obligation to care for you.
Death's Countdown to the Peak of Life
D-9 months
If you want a miracle, start by moving your toes.
Just because you can say you have nothing doesn't mean you don't have anything.
Lasting confidence comes from your own stage.
Just take one step and your fears will disappear.
D-5 months
If you want to change, look in the mirror first.
Deadlines bring about unexpected changes
The joy of living through your own eyes
Those who have set foot on the road must keep walking.
D-1 month
A sailing ship sails with wheels and sails.
Beyond the things that make me hesitate, there is something I seek.
It's not trials that block your dreams, it's stability.
Push to the limit
Experienced racers use the brakes more than the accelerator.
D-Day
Time to Say Goodbye
The last day of my twenty-nineth year
The moment you hesitate is the moment you must take the gamble.
A fresh start starts with just $5
The moment you realize that there is an end, the magic of life begins.
epilogue
D-12 months
Twenty-nine comes in quiet despair
The sin of 'having nothing to do'
The world has no obligation to care for you.
Death's Countdown to the Peak of Life
D-9 months
If you want a miracle, start by moving your toes.
Just because you can say you have nothing doesn't mean you don't have anything.
Lasting confidence comes from your own stage.
Just take one step and your fears will disappear.
D-5 months
If you want to change, look in the mirror first.
Deadlines bring about unexpected changes
The joy of living through your own eyes
Those who have set foot on the road must keep walking.
D-1 month
A sailing ship sails with wheels and sails.
Beyond the things that make me hesitate, there is something I seek.
It's not trials that block your dreams, it's stability.
Push to the limit
Experienced racers use the brakes more than the accelerator.
D-Day
Time to Say Goodbye
The last day of my twenty-nineth year
The moment you hesitate is the moment you must take the gamble.
A fresh start starts with just $5
The moment you realize that there is an end, the magic of life begins.
epilogue
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It's my twenty-ninth birthday, and I'm starting a party all my own.
It's okay to be alone.
Because I was alone last year and the year before.
Yeah, that's okay.
(……) I am not a loner, but I am a person who is alone, and that is how temporary workers are. (……) I am twenty-nine.
I am fat and ugly.
I am alone.
I have no hobbies or special skills.
I tremble every day, barely earning enough to put food on the table.
How did it end up like this? Was I such a pathetic person? The water wasn't hot at first.
So I thought it was okay.
But at some point, I realized that I was a frog in boiling water.
No matter how hard you struggle, it has become difficult to escape from your current life.
--- From "Twenty-Nine Comes in Quiet Despair"
“If there’s one thing I’ve learned for sure from doing this my whole life, it’s that ‘people are ultimately alone.’
During the day, you may not have time to realize it, but at night, it hits you hard.
The smiles of beautiful women, the luxurious atmosphere, and the expensive liquor are just props.
Skilled service is also a prop.
“I think what really matters is the echo of the heart.” Honestly, it was such ordinary and common talk.
I know that everyone is lonely and needs service that comes from the heart.
Was it really necessary to call her in separately to discuss such matters? But it wasn't until some time later that I finally understood why Madame had said such things, and what they meant.
--- From "It's not like you don't have anything just because you can say you don't have it"
If my life had been just busy, I might have given up early.
But I had a very clear and absolute goal.
The more I ran at full speed towards that goal, the more adrenaline I felt and the more powerful I became.
What's even better is that being this busy leaves no time to indulge in feelings of loneliness or other weaknesses.
(……) I had no will to live to the point where I wanted to take my own life.
Then, I set a time-limited goal called Las Vegas, and I am running at full speed towards that goal.
As six months passed, little by little, changes occurred.
(……) It was possible because everyone had a time-limited goal that they set for themselves.
--- From "Deadlines Bring Unexpected Changes"
“Amari, don’t think about anything and just rest.
"When else can I rest when I'm at a time like this? I've worked so hard," Megumi said.
I suddenly felt a lump in my throat when she said, “I lived too hard.”
Have you ever heard such words in your life? (……) Since I decided to go to Las Vegas, I haven’t wasted a single minute or second, and I haven’t had time to look back or worry.
(……) “Yeah, my friends and I went to the club a little while ago.” “I see.” I can’t believe the word ‘friend’ came out of my mouth so naturally.
(……) “Amari, I’m always on your side.
But take care of your health.
“Don’t forget that there are many people who will be sad if you fall.” “Yes, thank you.” My heart warmed once again.
People who care about me… … .
--- From "Experienced racers use the brakes better than the accelerator"
One day in July, a week before my thirtieth birthday, I was sitting on a plane to Las Vegas.
(……) If everything goes according to plan, on my thirtieth birthday, I will either be completely penniless or I will have a fortune I will never touch in my life.
(……) ‘Okay, now it begins.
Play luxuriously without regrets or foolishness.
(……) ‘Okay, now it’s time to say goodbye.’ Before I knew it, hot tears flowed down my cheeks.
For the past year, no matter how difficult it was, I never shed a tear.
There wasn't even time to sniffle.
But for now, let's just let this moment flow.
Even if your face gets completely soaked as if you were drenched in a fountain, just let it be.
Time to say goodbye… … .
Now I am gone forever from the me I knew.
--- From "Time to Say Goodbye"
It's all over.
The great battle of life is over, and my twenties are over forever.
(……) In the end, the only money I won was 5 dollars.
This was all my achievement.
(……) This five-dollar bill, which had passed through countless hands, suddenly touched me.
After a year of intense work, flying all the way here and risking my life, I finally earned $5.
‘… … Yes, I won.
'It was only five dollars, but I won!' (……) Suddenly, a voice from deep within my heart said this.
'The truth is, it's a draw.
But I leave you five dollars.
So now start your game again.' (……) The girl I knew died yesterday.
With this, I gained 'another today' and continued the extension of my life.
On the first day of my thirties, the gift I received was 'life'.
It's okay to be alone.
Because I was alone last year and the year before.
Yeah, that's okay.
(……) I am not a loner, but I am a person who is alone, and that is how temporary workers are. (……) I am twenty-nine.
I am fat and ugly.
I am alone.
I have no hobbies or special skills.
I tremble every day, barely earning enough to put food on the table.
How did it end up like this? Was I such a pathetic person? The water wasn't hot at first.
So I thought it was okay.
But at some point, I realized that I was a frog in boiling water.
No matter how hard you struggle, it has become difficult to escape from your current life.
--- From "Twenty-Nine Comes in Quiet Despair"
“If there’s one thing I’ve learned for sure from doing this my whole life, it’s that ‘people are ultimately alone.’
During the day, you may not have time to realize it, but at night, it hits you hard.
The smiles of beautiful women, the luxurious atmosphere, and the expensive liquor are just props.
Skilled service is also a prop.
“I think what really matters is the echo of the heart.” Honestly, it was such ordinary and common talk.
I know that everyone is lonely and needs service that comes from the heart.
Was it really necessary to call her in separately to discuss such matters? But it wasn't until some time later that I finally understood why Madame had said such things, and what they meant.
--- From "It's not like you don't have anything just because you can say you don't have it"
If my life had been just busy, I might have given up early.
But I had a very clear and absolute goal.
The more I ran at full speed towards that goal, the more adrenaline I felt and the more powerful I became.
What's even better is that being this busy leaves no time to indulge in feelings of loneliness or other weaknesses.
(……) I had no will to live to the point where I wanted to take my own life.
Then, I set a time-limited goal called Las Vegas, and I am running at full speed towards that goal.
As six months passed, little by little, changes occurred.
(……) It was possible because everyone had a time-limited goal that they set for themselves.
--- From "Deadlines Bring Unexpected Changes"
“Amari, don’t think about anything and just rest.
"When else can I rest when I'm at a time like this? I've worked so hard," Megumi said.
I suddenly felt a lump in my throat when she said, “I lived too hard.”
Have you ever heard such words in your life? (……) Since I decided to go to Las Vegas, I haven’t wasted a single minute or second, and I haven’t had time to look back or worry.
(……) “Yeah, my friends and I went to the club a little while ago.” “I see.” I can’t believe the word ‘friend’ came out of my mouth so naturally.
(……) “Amari, I’m always on your side.
But take care of your health.
“Don’t forget that there are many people who will be sad if you fall.” “Yes, thank you.” My heart warmed once again.
People who care about me… … .
--- From "Experienced racers use the brakes better than the accelerator"
One day in July, a week before my thirtieth birthday, I was sitting on a plane to Las Vegas.
(……) If everything goes according to plan, on my thirtieth birthday, I will either be completely penniless or I will have a fortune I will never touch in my life.
(……) ‘Okay, now it begins.
Play luxuriously without regrets or foolishness.
(……) ‘Okay, now it’s time to say goodbye.’ Before I knew it, hot tears flowed down my cheeks.
For the past year, no matter how difficult it was, I never shed a tear.
There wasn't even time to sniffle.
But for now, let's just let this moment flow.
Even if your face gets completely soaked as if you were drenched in a fountain, just let it be.
Time to say goodbye… … .
Now I am gone forever from the me I knew.
--- From "Time to Say Goodbye"
It's all over.
The great battle of life is over, and my twenties are over forever.
(……) In the end, the only money I won was 5 dollars.
This was all my achievement.
(……) This five-dollar bill, which had passed through countless hands, suddenly touched me.
After a year of intense work, flying all the way here and risking my life, I finally earned $5.
‘… … Yes, I won.
'It was only five dollars, but I won!' (……) Suddenly, a voice from deep within my heart said this.
'The truth is, it's a draw.
But I leave you five dollars.
So now start your game again.' (……) The girl I knew died yesterday.
With this, I gained 'another today' and continued the extension of my life.
On the first day of my thirties, the gift I received was 'life'.
--- From "A New Beginning is Enough with $5"
Publisher's Review
A year of intense records from my 29th birthday
Amari, who worked as a temporary worker, celebrates her gloomy twenty-ninth birthday alone.
He throws a birthday party with a slice of strawberry cake he bought at the local convenience store and tries to hypnotize himself by saying, "It's okay because I've always been alone," but he collapses while trying to eat the strawberry he dropped on the floor.
A loner with no decent job, abandoned by his lover, ugly, and weighing over 73 kilograms… … .
She despairs over a life that is like a dark tunnel, and decides to commit suicide, but she cannot even muster the courage to die.
Frustrated by her own lack of courage to live or die, she absentmindedly glances at the television screen and is thrilled by the 'absolutely beautiful world' unfolding before her eyes.
That place was Las Vegas! For the first time in her life, she felt a yearning to "do something," and a thrilling excitement. She gave herself a one-year deadline.
'On the last day of my 29th year, I die in Las Vegas after experiencing the greatest moment of my life.
The days given to me are for the next year.'
From that day on, the countdown of life begins, and in order to earn money, you run around with all your might, trying various jobs that you would never have thought of...
The first Japan Emotional Award Grand Prize winner
"On my 29th birthday, I decided to die a year later" is the winner of the 1st Japan Emotional Award, hosted by Nippon Broadcasting Corporation and Linda Publishers in 2010 with the slogan "More Emotional Japan!"
This work, which won the grand prize after beating out competition of 1046:1, is entirely based on true events and covers a year starting from Amari's 29th birthday.
Author Amari recalls that turning twenty-nine was a "turning point in my life," and conveys that the magic of life begins the moment you realize that "there is an end."
When you're in despair, you think you're the only one suffering and the pain will last forever, but she realized through a year of intense living that this isn't the case.
If you are feeling hopeless about life right now, I wholeheartedly encourage you to find the wings you haven't spread yet and boldly run towards the next step, knowing that you will definitely gain something.
Her endless run begins after she sentences herself to one year to live!
The driving force behind its steady seller success: the empathy and support of domestic readers.
It really shows that at the end of life, you gain strength you never imagined.
When I had a task called a 'goal', I realized once again that nothing is impossible as long as there is a sense of urgency to achieve it.
- Self-reliance
I'm going to open my diary now and set a time limit for myself like Amari.
To document my struggles toward a single goal! - aurorahana
The truth is, once you have a purpose in life, you'll find a path to follow! I realized that the most important thing is to first figure out what you want to do.
- Bookstore Flower Room
Looking at Amari, I thought that I, too, could do something living like this, and that I wanted to do something.
I, too, should live a little more passionately and coolly.
- Treasure Command
Is it because of this book?
I'm still lazy and just a dreamer, but it's made me think about my goals again.
And it started to move a little bit.
- idtptkd
Let's live as hard as we can, just like Amari, since we've decided to die.
And what if we discovered the joy and happiness of life? If we lived with all our might, as if we were making a final gamble, wouldn't we discover that this world... ...has more meaning to life? - Let's give wings to our dreams.
This book is a wake-up call to those who are wandering in absurd imaginations and prompts them to reflect.
It makes us realize how dangerous the lives of those who have lived, or are living, each day meaninglessly, believing that because they were safe today, they will be safe tomorrow too.
- Gomjwi
Support from Japanese readers across all ages
At first I was drawn to the title, but the content was much better.
There were precious words of life scattered throughout the sentences, which touched my heart.
I decided to read this book and enjoy my life to the fullest.
- 14-year-old student (female)
I was lucky to come across this book.
This book, which I gave to myself because I was drawn to its title, gradually changed something inside me.
- 25-year-old female teacher
The ability to take action toward achieving goals is amazing.
I felt anew that people can change and become who they want to be.
This is a book that can give you the courage to live even when you are frustrated.
- 26-year-old civil servant (male)
Honestly, it's fun and touching.
A person can literally do anything if he puts his 'power' into it.
I too will risk my life.
- 32-year-old office worker (female)
It was a story that I was drawn into because there were many parts I could relate to.
I also felt that, like the main character Amari, I should cherish my time and actively take on various challenges.
- 35-year-old office worker (female)
I was completely impressed.
It was good.
I was able to gain energy for life by looking back on each year of my life.
I really hope it gets made into a movie or drama.
- 55-year-old office worker (male)
I was touched.
I was able to gain the 'strength to live'.
I realized anew that living humans, living while observing 'death', can exert such great power.
- 83-year-old abbot (male)
Amari, who worked as a temporary worker, celebrates her gloomy twenty-ninth birthday alone.
He throws a birthday party with a slice of strawberry cake he bought at the local convenience store and tries to hypnotize himself by saying, "It's okay because I've always been alone," but he collapses while trying to eat the strawberry he dropped on the floor.
A loner with no decent job, abandoned by his lover, ugly, and weighing over 73 kilograms… … .
She despairs over a life that is like a dark tunnel, and decides to commit suicide, but she cannot even muster the courage to die.
Frustrated by her own lack of courage to live or die, she absentmindedly glances at the television screen and is thrilled by the 'absolutely beautiful world' unfolding before her eyes.
That place was Las Vegas! For the first time in her life, she felt a yearning to "do something," and a thrilling excitement. She gave herself a one-year deadline.
'On the last day of my 29th year, I die in Las Vegas after experiencing the greatest moment of my life.
The days given to me are for the next year.'
From that day on, the countdown of life begins, and in order to earn money, you run around with all your might, trying various jobs that you would never have thought of...
The first Japan Emotional Award Grand Prize winner
"On my 29th birthday, I decided to die a year later" is the winner of the 1st Japan Emotional Award, hosted by Nippon Broadcasting Corporation and Linda Publishers in 2010 with the slogan "More Emotional Japan!"
This work, which won the grand prize after beating out competition of 1046:1, is entirely based on true events and covers a year starting from Amari's 29th birthday.
Author Amari recalls that turning twenty-nine was a "turning point in my life," and conveys that the magic of life begins the moment you realize that "there is an end."
When you're in despair, you think you're the only one suffering and the pain will last forever, but she realized through a year of intense living that this isn't the case.
If you are feeling hopeless about life right now, I wholeheartedly encourage you to find the wings you haven't spread yet and boldly run towards the next step, knowing that you will definitely gain something.
Her endless run begins after she sentences herself to one year to live!
The driving force behind its steady seller success: the empathy and support of domestic readers.
It really shows that at the end of life, you gain strength you never imagined.
When I had a task called a 'goal', I realized once again that nothing is impossible as long as there is a sense of urgency to achieve it.
- Self-reliance
I'm going to open my diary now and set a time limit for myself like Amari.
To document my struggles toward a single goal! - aurorahana
The truth is, once you have a purpose in life, you'll find a path to follow! I realized that the most important thing is to first figure out what you want to do.
- Bookstore Flower Room
Looking at Amari, I thought that I, too, could do something living like this, and that I wanted to do something.
I, too, should live a little more passionately and coolly.
- Treasure Command
Is it because of this book?
I'm still lazy and just a dreamer, but it's made me think about my goals again.
And it started to move a little bit.
- idtptkd
Let's live as hard as we can, just like Amari, since we've decided to die.
And what if we discovered the joy and happiness of life? If we lived with all our might, as if we were making a final gamble, wouldn't we discover that this world... ...has more meaning to life? - Let's give wings to our dreams.
This book is a wake-up call to those who are wandering in absurd imaginations and prompts them to reflect.
It makes us realize how dangerous the lives of those who have lived, or are living, each day meaninglessly, believing that because they were safe today, they will be safe tomorrow too.
- Gomjwi
Support from Japanese readers across all ages
At first I was drawn to the title, but the content was much better.
There were precious words of life scattered throughout the sentences, which touched my heart.
I decided to read this book and enjoy my life to the fullest.
- 14-year-old student (female)
I was lucky to come across this book.
This book, which I gave to myself because I was drawn to its title, gradually changed something inside me.
- 25-year-old female teacher
The ability to take action toward achieving goals is amazing.
I felt anew that people can change and become who they want to be.
This is a book that can give you the courage to live even when you are frustrated.
- 26-year-old civil servant (male)
Honestly, it's fun and touching.
A person can literally do anything if he puts his 'power' into it.
I too will risk my life.
- 32-year-old office worker (female)
It was a story that I was drawn into because there were many parts I could relate to.
I also felt that, like the main character Amari, I should cherish my time and actively take on various challenges.
- 35-year-old office worker (female)
I was completely impressed.
It was good.
I was able to gain energy for life by looking back on each year of my life.
I really hope it gets made into a movie or drama.
- 55-year-old office worker (male)
I was touched.
I was able to gain the 'strength to live'.
I realized anew that living humans, living while observing 'death', can exert such great power.
- 83-year-old abbot (male)
GOODS SPECIFICS
- Date of issue: December 1, 2022
- Format: Hardcover book binding method guide
- Page count, weight, size: 240 pages | 404g | 140*205*20mm
- ISBN13: 9788959136896
- ISBN10: 8959136891
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