prolog

Part 1: Life in the Darkness That Surrounds Me

Part 2: Even When Life Becomes Bloody, the Unwavering Will

Part 3: A Fateful Encounter at the Edge of Despair

Epilogue

Translator's Note

From Princess Diana's death to meeting Meghan Markle
The Prince of England, and the first to be told by 'Harry'
A historical confession about the British royal family and their life journey!

■ Aspects of birth

“I will do something to my brother
In case of emergency
“I came out into the world.”

Some say that birth is equal and noble for everyone.
Of course, it is not wrong to define birth as the moment a baby is conceived from its mother and sees the light of day without anything in its hands or on its body.
However, if we consider the reality that follows birth, we may think that the proposition about birth is not necessarily true.

Prince Harry, the narrator and protagonist of Spare, was born as the second son of the British royal family.
Prince William, as the eldest son, was treated as befitting the heir to the throne from childhood.
In contrast, Harry was subjected to numerous discriminations and neglects due to his birth order, including not only his living space but also the title of 'spare'.
So Harry calmly accepts the fact that he is stepping on the path of a spare item that he could not have chosen for himself.

The birth of these brothers, who were so different from each other, began to diverge in different directions.

■ Shrouded in the shadow of death

“My mother was a light.
Pure and brilliant light.
“How do you explain light?”

Harry loved his mother, Princess Diana.
His mother's death was a great shock to him, as great as the love he had for her.
The shadow of Diana's death still haunts Harry, to the point that all the controversies he has created so far can be explained by the loss of his mother.
Even though he's long past his forties, Harry still finds himself stuck in the moment he was twelve years old, walking with his mother's coffin in grief.

The various aspects of death, just as diverse as the aspects of life that unfold after birth, provide a decisive turning point in Harry's life.
His mother, Princess Diana, was like that, and so was his life after joining the British Army and serving in the military.
Harry becomes a national hero in Britain by overcoming the death of his comrades and defeating the Taliban on the battlefield where the fear of death lurks.

In conclusion, the death of his mother left an indelible scar on Harry's life, but the death he witnessed on the battlefield led his life into a new phase.
The contrast between the two deaths seems to create a sense of irony.
However, as Harry reflected on losing his purpose in life for the first time since his deployment, the countless deaths he had witnessed only ended up sinking him into a swamp of loss.

■ Life on the chopping block

“Then the needle pricked my finger.
As I watched the blood splatter, I called myself and my family 'blue blood'.
“Everyone came to mind: friends, strangers, fellow soldiers, journalists, novelists, schoolmates.”

The image of the British royal family as the symbol of Britain itself remains intact in the 21st century.
These images are interpreted in somewhat solemn terms as a glories of the once world-conquering imperial era, the centre of Commonwealth unity and a long and powerful tradition.
On the other hand, the British royal family is also the center of gossip.
Like all royals, Harry was unable to escape the crossfire of the media due to the indelible stigma of his birth.

Could the fate of Princess Diana, who was chased by the paparazzi until the last day of her life and could not avoid the flash even in her dying moments, have been passed on to Harry?
The paparazzi were busy digging into Harry's every move and creating controversy with sensational reports.
These paparazzi's yellow journalism efforts are now reaching out to his wife, Meghan, following his mother and himself.
Throughout Spare, Harry unfilteredly expresses the hurt and anger he feels towards journalists.

Harry's enemies weren't just journalists.
The British royal family immediately deemed Meghan, his wife, unfit for royal duties due to her race, origins, and divorce history.
Even his father, who had simply urged him to endure the indiscriminate attacks from journalists for the sake of his dignity as a royal, and William, who began to interfere in every little thing, were not on Harry's side.
In this way, Harry finally begins to yearn for a truly free life, leaving behind his difficult life journey as a human being, 'Harry', and not as a member of the British royal family.