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Bread Eater, Fat Rice Cake, Yang Yu-jin - My painfully precious memories that I no longer want to coolly ignore

Part 1 - The Story That Happened: A Friendly Friend Called Lupus

Life gave me bananas too early
A legend in appearance rather than personality
You see it as a complex, but I see it as a national treasure.
Our sticky surprise blood donation party
The patient inside me who I fully accept
If you give me an egg tart, I won't eat it
Gangster Grandma in the High-Rise Hospital Room
Grandpa said, forget about the Jo Jin thing
Every day is a shining adolescence for us

Part 2 - Becoming Stories: Dreams Help Us Survive

I'm starting a marathon in my 20s. Can I change the event to walking?
Even if it's a dream to teach my children how to twerk
A small and precious beginner's mind toward acting
You'll do well even if you do it roughly, so relax a bit.
This damn dream that makes me laugh and cry
Sorry??? Should I try it first and then think about it?
Seniors, juniors, gather under me!
How to protect myself from disappearing
If it's too perfect, it's not fun, you know what?
Until this Americano becomes lukewarm
Adult Taste, Hotcakes
Are you okay now?

Part 3 - The Story Now: You're Invited to the Corner Theater

Yesterday it was pufferfish, today it was creator
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This is 'Gosungi' for my little audience.
I don't even sleep, but I'm just living my life.
Open the door of your heart painted on a white canvas
Diving has the shape of life
The neighborhood guys who have been friends for 15 years and are breaking the monthly bottle
A Tasty Life with Wanderers
Without the baker, I have no bread.

Part 4 - Family Stories: All Roads Lead to Our Home

It wasn't my favorite place during my school days, but now I really want to go there.
The impatience to become a mature person
My role model is my mom, my ideal type is my dad
“No, I can’t be the first.” Lee Sang, the first
When I get confused in life, I go to someone younger than me.
Warm days with the youngest child of the Yang family
Cat child, I study you today too
Ganji, the words I only spoke to you with my eyes

Going out
Dedicated to the days without answers that overcame me without me knowing

"A kind friend named Lupus has impacted me at every important moment in my life."
Yang Yu-jin's courageous and cheerful story of overcoming the crossroads of life and death

Although she might have had a more serious expression, the author of this book, Yang Yu-jin, known as “Bread Eater and Fat Rice Cake,” opens up frankly, sharing the story of her long-held struggle with illness.
He said that when he was suddenly diagnosed with an incurable disease in his third year of middle school, he thought, “I’ll live every day as if it were my last.”
Lupus, a dangerous and incurable disease in which the immune system that should protect me attacks me instead, causing an inflammatory response throughout the body, fortunately has a survival rate of over 90%, but it is a disease in which dangerous symptoms suddenly appear.
Repeated worsening and relief, sudden symptoms such as jaundice and rash bring daily life to a halt.
It is dangerous even for minor bleeding due to thrombocytopenia, and can also lead to rheumatoid arthritis and photosensitivity syndrome.


Even though he has suffered from symptoms that threaten his daily life and has been hospitalized at a critical age, where he was on the verge of death, the author speaks with a calm and playful expression.
Lupus was like a kind friend to me.
How could an incurable disease that completely shattered my daily life be considered a "friendly friend"? During what should have been the prime of my youth, I spent weeks in a hospital room, confined to my room, unable to go out, and it couldn't have been easy to endure.
The author sometimes jokes that it was thanks to his “cheerful and positive personality,” which anyone who watches the YouTube video “Bread Eats Fat” will know, but this book is full of honest stories about how he positively overcame his life-or-death struggle with illness.
What helped me endure my illness were the countless people who quietly taught me how to live.


While struggling with illness, the author felt and learned through his whole body the comfort and consideration of those he met, and the attitudes of those who lived strong despite suffering from illnesses much more serious than his own.
From her sensitive childhood, when “the heart of an adolescent girl who didn’t want to be hurt clashed with her mother’s love,” the author gradually began to realize the power of love and positivity.
During a time when one would have been preoccupied with one's own illness, the author learned life from others and digested it with clarity, gradually overcoming his illness.
This book contains the records of my past struggles with illness, in which I learned from people and moved forward toward them.


Gangster Grandma in the High-Rise Cancer Ward
A strong and upright attitude toward life learned beyond the hospital curtains

The tough title of the book, 'Gangster Grandma in the High-Rise Hospital Room', encapsulates the courageous life lessons learned from others.
The author secretly remembers an old woman he met in his first year of college, who had emergency surgery for sudden abdominal bleeding and woke up in the cancer ward for high-risk patients, as the "gangster old woman."
Among the patients in the cancer ward, the 'gangster grandmother', who had the most symptoms, was a person who "looked shabby at first glance, but somehow had a sense of strength," and was stronger than anyone else.
“I tried hard to refuse help because I was afraid of being a bother to people,” “I considered people around me to be my own even when they were mean to me,” and “I endured pain and suffering silently.”
Perhaps the meaning behind the crude word 'gangster' is the attitude of enduring one's life 'coolly' with a burning will.


Meeting the 'gangster grandmother', who lives her life without any resentment or regret, simply finding meaning in the fact that she shared love, was an important opportunity for her to reflect on her own life.
The author, who “realized what I should do through what I saw, heard, and felt in a room in the cancer ward,” now looks into the individual lives of people around the world and pledges to help them live a little more comfortably.
Perhaps the 'gangster grandmother in the high-rise hospital room' that the author encountered embodies the author's cool and brave future as she lives with an incurable disease, while also embodying the very image of life itself, silently enduring her own life and supporting those around her.

"Dreams help us survive."
The dream of becoming an actor to make people laugh, nurtured in the hospital room

From the point where one reflects on the lives of others through the life learned from them, this book is both a story of a steadfast struggle with illness and a story of growth.
The fact that the author has continued to pursue his dream of becoming an actor, which he had even before becoming a creator, by appearing in web dramas such as “Youth Blossom” and “Hamburger Department Class of 23” is also not unrelated to the incurable disease he suffered from.
The dream of becoming an actor, which was first cherished in the middle school drama club after being praised for his "perverted acting," grew in a different way as he lay alone in a hospital bed, listening to the "legendary life stories" of his "painful seniors" for over six hours a day through the curtains.
The stories of the generous adults in the hospital room, who “seem to have given up on everything but still love life,” colorfully unfold the many emotions of life.
The author pledges to convey to people the comfort of memories and the joy of empathy through the art of acting, which captures the essence of life.


It was an opportunity for not only my seniors, but also my peers to nurture their dreams of becoming actors.
While waiting for treatment at the hospital, the author saw the tired faces of fellow lupus patients of the same age and wanted to offer them some comfort. After that, he overcame his illness and slowly moved towards his dream.
When I was sick and couldn't rehearse for a performance, and my hands were shaking from fear of starting something new, I remembered the words of my grandfather, whom I met by chance, "Forget about Jo Jin-geon."
The author, who sometimes experiences anxiety, takes out a piece of A4 paper and organizes his thoughts. What he realized was that even if it is a very small dream, you must cherish it and move forward to live a life without regrets.
Remembering the power of love I received and returning that power to others—perhaps this is why the author can move forward tirelessly, even without sleeping properly.
There is always a person at the end of that road.

A tough and affectionate love story drawn directly on a crimson cover
Dedicated to the days without answers, when I was in pain with my whole body and loved with my whole body

The reason why the YouTube video 'Bread Eater Saljjinddeok' was able to approach everyone in a bright and positive way without any resistance is because of the author's long-time concern about whether his video might hurt someone.
The author, who describes himself as “a very sensitive and emotional person,” has been more concerned than anyone else about ensuring that no one else suffers as much as he has, and that his cheerfulness is conveyed clearly.
Rather than focusing solely on my own pain, I am walking the path of reaching out to others through my pain as a creator and actor.


The new hobby of 'art', which he started because he had difficulty moving his aching body, was another outlet for the author's mind.
The author, who poured out his heart as if drawing a door to his heart on a white canvas, also drew the cover illustration for this book himself.
When you open the cover, painted with a tough crimson brush stroke as if it were a hot life force, you are immediately drawn into the author's heart, which he wrote with sincerity, one word at a time, through the night.


The book also contains his sincerity towards his family, which was only cheerfully depicted in the video, his sincerity towards his friends and pets who helped him get back on his feet, and his sincerity towards his fans.
The power of love and positivity that he nurtured with them was probably the driving force that 'unknowingly helped me overcome myself' during his long battle with illness.
The days when I was at a loss due to pain and had no answers have now become ‘days without answers’ where I can fill in my own answers.
The faces of the people depicted with a calm and courageous spirit are already vivid in the story.