prolog

young children

I knew you'd wait 14
In Search of the Longevity Fairy 19
The Aesthetics of Difference 25
I can't explain it 32
40 Like a flower blooming
It's Okay to Fail 47
Death of a Woman I Didn't Know 56

Summer sea

Love also requires learning 66
I want to remember everything I don't remember 77
My Talented Gardener 84
Decision to Break Up with Heaven 94
Vivid and unpleasant 103
I miss your trembling shoulders 113

baboon

A Bundle of Rain-Soaked Memories 122
Life goes on 127
The Courage Not to See What You See 131
When I asked why, he said, "Just because." 136
All I Need Is Love 144
Mom and the Refrigerator 151

sharpness

Spring Day of My Life 160
The Harsh Winter Hours 167
That's my friend 175
185 like spring sunshine
My life is summer 196 now

Soseul

The Palace is Coming 206
Transparent Tears 214
The Name of the Earth 221
226 A Flower of Desire that Blooms While Swaying
Memento Mori is the magician 232
Have you ever had your own room? 236
The Night the Moon Tempts 242
There is no downfall in life 247

Epilogue