In the invisible darkness
A book for a struggling soul

"thank you,
“Thank you for holding on so well this far…”

This book is a message for a soul trapped in deep darkness, in despair as if even God has abandoned them.
Enter into the midst of that soul's pain and comfort it by telling it that it's okay, that it's safe, that all your pain is the path through which God runs to you.
It reminds me of God's heart, which says, "You have been my love without fail for even a moment."
If you're feeling hopeless, wondering if you'll ever be able to get back on your feet again, or if it's too late, this book offers a message that will give you renewed strength.
“Don’t worry.
“God’s timing is perfect!”

There is an immutable truth that we must not forget.
“Even if you can’t see me, I can see you.
“Even if you can’t see your daddy at the end of the dark alley, baby, your daddy can see you.” When you’re trapped in the thick smoke, when you’re walking down that dark alley, believe me.
Even when I can't see God, God sees you.

---From "Stay Alive Even If You're Covered in Blood"

Our Jesus, you were able to overcome because your face was visible at the top of the hill.
“I didn’t run away for you.
“I was able to overcome this Gethsemane by longing for you to be with me.” So just look quietly.
The Father who was waiting for you by climbing the hill of Gethsemane of your tears first… .
At the top of that hill, our Lord, when He sees us, who have persevered and never given up, defending that hill, won't He smile and say, "How have you been?
That was enough.
Even the worries and struggles were beautiful.
I was with you on your hill too.
“I loved you so much that I would rather die than live in heaven without you.”
---From "The Face Seen from Gethsemane"

Surely, we too have the fig tree under which we met Jesus and set out.
Jesus came to me under the tree where I was most vulnerable and most desperate, waiting with tears in my eyes, and spoke to me.
“I saw it all.
The room where you cried alone, the hymns you listened to, the prayers you wrote.
I was already there with you through the tears you endured.
“I have been with you under your fig tree every moment, without fail.”
---From "The Limit Has Come"

Please wait.
And look closely at the waves you were trembling and afraid of, beneath whose feet lies that wave.
Do you see? The storm you were afraid of is beneath whose feet.
Jesus walks with the waves beneath his feet.
Isn't it fascinating? I thought the waves of my wounds and the storm of my tears were difficult obstacles I had to avoid, but look closely.
To Jesus, the waves and storm become ‘the path that runs toward me.’

---From "Storm Class"

What's the most common question we ask ourselves in life? Why doesn't God, who knows everything about my future and my future, prevent my mistakes and failures? Why does He just leave me to endure these hardships? The answer is simple.
Because God's big picture for you requires not only your perfection and success, but also your stumbles and failures.
Black paint is absolutely necessary for the gold paint to shine as true gold in a large painting.
In order for the artist to really make the gold paint shine, he must also paint black within the large painting.
You must allow yourself to experience darkness and failure.
Because I have to break you and make you into light.

---From "For Light to Become Light"

If you are doubting, if you are wavering, even that small breath is okay.
I pray with tears in my eyes, asking God to save me, that even in these doubts, I need Him.
Then your Jesus, who willingly carried his scars, will say:
“Not a single day, not a single sigh, have I missed your sound.
“Now get out of that swamp.”

---From "Scars"