★ New essay by YouTuber One Shot Hansol, with 1.6 billion cumulative views and 1.6 million subscribers

Parents' divorce, two stepmothers, father's death…
The boy who was most uncomfortable with the word 'family'
Until I grew up to be an adult who believed in the power of people and love,
42 Stories That Awaken Ordinary Happiness

The second essay by Kim Han-sol, who became more famous for the title "Tori Dad" rather than "visually impaired," has been published.
"How to Love Without Regret" is a record of love and recovery centered around the theme of "family."
This novel-like journey unfolds as a person who believed he was alone in the world after experiencing three breakups and losses learns how to be loved and how to love again in someone's arms.
The author wrote this book to show how relationships made with heart, not blood, can save lives and how true love can change the world.

The word that has long permeated his difficult family history is 'regret'.
Thinking of his original family, with whom he can no longer speak, Kim Han-sol chooses to love more diligently so as not to have any more regrets in the rest of his life.
It was his family who caused him irreversible pain, but it was also his family who led him back to life after his fall.
From the eight-year-old Hansol, consumed by shame and envy, to the present Kim Hansol, who dreams of tomorrow's love as a proud guardian of his dog, Tori, we come to deeply understand his value of "family is not something you meet, but something you make."

In an age where the meaning of the word 'family' has faded, Kim Han-sol's story awakens us to the true meaning of bonds and happiness.
The affectionate conversations with the grandmother, the warm trust with the uncle, and the breath-like communication with Tori are shown as simple yet beautiful everyday experiences, and it makes us rediscover the value of the 'joy of being together'.
His story will provide paradoxical comfort and dreams to those who cherish their family but are deeply hurt by it, and to those whose relationships have become a burden.
With the belief that love ultimately takes us to a better place.

When I think back to my childhood, it's as if I lived in a mating game that was repeated over and over again.
After spinning around in circles, they pair up and take their places according to the chant.
If you go round and round again and miss your partner, you lose your place.
If you sit down for a moment, you feel relieved, but if you get up, you fidget for fear that your chair will be taken away forever.
I dream that if I go to church diligently, read the Bible diligently, study diligently, and help with housework diligently, I will be able to sit in my seat without losing my chair.
The game of vain hope was soon over.
--- pp.30-31 From "My Place"

I don't think my father didn't love me because he wasn't very expressive.
As I become an adult and gradually come to understand the clumsy way my young parents loved me, I sometimes go back in time and see myself and my father.
My father, who was not able to bring the bravado he displayed outside into the house.
A son who never once asked what he wanted to ask.
Our time, which we spare no expressions for, is frozen forever in it, and remains faintly as countless sentences of regret and doubt.
--- p.39 From "Father and I"

Sometimes, when I'm having a war of nerves with someone and I get so angry that I want to cut off the conversation, there are words that come to mind like a reflex.
'This could be the end.' You feel so hurt that you slam the door and go out into the street, and then you might get into an accident.
To guarantee that I will still be alive and well an hour from now, or twenty-four hours from now, and that I will still be able to see the people next to me is, at least in my own life, a clear arrogance.
When I remember that tomorrow isn't something to be taken for granted, the urge to close the door and abandon the person in front of me instantly subsides.
Because I hope that there will be no more words left in my life that I cannot ask, words that I cannot say, and words that I regret not being able to convey.
--- pp.51-52 From "Father's Legacy"

Can a family certificate prove family? To me, family isn't about documents or blood ties. It's about the voices that invite me to have dinner together.
The greeting that greets me when I return from going out, the bowl of soup that is prepared silently, the steps that accompany me on special occasions, the faces that rejoice with me in good things, the belief that there is a place that will embrace me whenever I return.
Since I accepted that there are no conditions for all of that, I have a family.
In my position, where I was protected without even trying, instead of worrying about my role in order to be loved, I dreamed of myself.
It's been a long time since I left your home, but even after that, I was able to feel warm and not lonely in your arms.
--- pp.97-98 From "Returning Home"

Tori became a star dog loved by 1.6 million subscribers, and for the first time, I was called 'Tori' rather than 'visually impaired'.
He is more often called 'Dad'.
The PD of TV Animal Farm speaks in a voice filled with happiness whenever he sees us.
“I’ve been looking after animals for 20 years, and I just love seeing Tori and Hansol.
“I just love it.”
Me too.
It's just so, so nice when people look at us and tell us that they're happy instead of worried.
--- p.172 From "The Good Thing Is Right Now"

While training Tori, I often thought, 'People and dogs are the same.'
How to motivate them to grow better.
This was the core of parenting as I understood it.
So, I think the most ideal way to love is motivation.
To continue to provide positive motivation so that this person can go to a better place, think better thoughts, and feel better emotions.

The same goes for loving me.

--- p.218 From “Love is Motivation”